Ok so gaia has stripped me of my cloths for the time being. I'm so vunerable. I haven't slept for almost 24 hours. I can't sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know that isn't normal. I can't help but feel depressed. My lil brother justin has graduated. I am very proud of him. I knew he would make it. I love him so much. Spring is still far far away. I miss her. England...I wonder if there was a way that I could teleport there. I wish. I love her to. My twin..my sister...my friend..There are so many things that I wish I could tell her and all of my friends. Things are getting worse over here. At least in my stand point. Mom is becoming like my dad. Sleep as I mentioned it before is eluding me. Dreams keep plagueing me. Noone understands me...or how I feel..I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I am running out of options. No one here can see the pain in my eyes...or in my voice.. I know its there. I can't hide it anymore, but noone sees it. I have to stop beating myself up, but I can't. I don't know what I am going to do journal...but something is about to happen...
Sunny
CloudsFall · Thu May 19, 2005 @ 06:40am · 2 Comments |