Hi journal.
It has been a while. Lately I haven't been getting on the computer. Things keep tying me up, but no worrries. I now have cloths, but I'm still poor. Things at the house are getting worse. Noone understands this. They tell me just to block it out. How can you block this out. I've been breaking slowly, but one more thing and I know It will be the end. Why does he do this to me. My friend say I don't open up to them, but I don't know what to say. Its hard just to come out and tell them about me and what's going on. Most of the time people say it can't be that bad. How would they know. I'm tired of running and hiding. I almost got angry the other day. Thats not good. Me angry is never good. I hold back my anger. I am a different person when I get angry. I turn into my father. As much as that scares me....I can't fight that. That's why I don't get mad. That's why I shelter myself behind a mask. My friends just don't know. I want to be open with them all the time, but i can't. I just want to stop hurting people and making them worry about me. I'm not worth all that trouble. They get annoyed when I say that.....but its the truth. I'm not worth worring over. I'm not worth anything. ..... Until next time journal..
Byes Sunny
CloudsFall · Sun May 29, 2005 @ 08:14pm · 1 Comments |