I got drunk today. I got drunk and went to school, drunk.
My heart got a good smashing today. I just wish I had the chance to let him know how I felt. But the early bird gets the worm, and I didn't get the worm. Otherwise I wouldn't be feeling like this.
Back on the sidelines for me. A respectable position. I want to be friends with him still, I honestly do. Perhaps being a friend might work in my favor, it might not.
Damn love, I'm not good enough for him, or anyone else. Thats why Raymond dumped me.
Thanks Raymond for making my life hell. I love you so much for all the pain you gave me. It will never go away.
I really liked this guy too. Oh well, I can wait. If my feelings are real, I can wait.
Though I guess its time to concentrate on finding out who I really am.
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