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so today was okay... I made some apple sauce with my mom...

Let Ryu run loose. Funny how he can find so much entertainment out of just a blanket in the middle of the floor.

Went back to make hot dogs...

Went to a Yoga class, and that girl that asked me about the class before was there... Asked for a job application since well, what else is there to do?

Now I'm just... *sighs*... in a bad mood all together... Honestly... I'm just tired of there being NOTHING in my life to live for anymore. Sure people say- Hey what about finding that certain someone that'll just make you happy the rest of your life :3... But you know what... If I can't find someone to go out with me now... In the prime of life... why would they want me later when I'm old and wrinkly?

Then you have friends right? No. Wrong. True people that believe in the same type of friendship I do are the people I befriend. All the people here are just... too caught up to notice someone who's dying from the inside out. Someone who screams for companionship even if it's just for five minutes and just completely ignore them.

Family? You know. Sure, yeah, my parents care about me... but there's one little thing... They don't know me. They don't know what I like or don't. They don't know anything about me.

Your Ferret? ...He's the only one it seems like... he's the only one who actually seems to give a damn when no one else will...

Goals? You know what, I have no real plans for my future other than dying- whether it be tomorrow or 90 years from now.

Yourself? ._. What are you not getting? How do you build yourself up? You build yourself up through others, and when others don't give a rat's a** well... you see where I'm going....

So yeah that's my bad mood in a nutshell. No one gives a damn. :3