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I'm bored and lonely..that's a pretty bad combination..I was so happy when I got on break. I thought I'd have time to do things..happy happy fun things. But so far there's been nothing. And the few happy times I've had were with my lurve..and now that he's away I have nothing and feel empty. Maybe I should look for something fun that I can do by myself..but I doubt I'll think of anything. It's funny, I was depressed when I was in school because I didn't have enough time to be with mi boy..now I'm sad and I'm out of school..I'm not quite sure why I'm sad but I am. It's funny, I can't remember ever being this sad before..a house full of people and I feel alone rolleyes I roll my eyes at me. Sometimes I wish that there was somebody who could rescue me..take me away from this place..Usually I feel that I have some sort of handle on things..now I'm just sick of things and want a life of my own...well not really on my own. I want to start my own life away from here..I want to be big and I want to be brave..and want to rescue myself and my love. But how can two unhappy people hope to make happiness, or bring happiness to each other?? Does that make sense? Maybe, it doesn't matter..I want to keep trying to make him happy..I live for his smile..I love how he makes me feel..and I really do hope that one day we'll be together..that one day we'll have the world.