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My most unincomprehensible thoughts....broken thoughts really.Thougts that make no sense....
like to you ever look at a picture and see a stranger?....
makes you think,how many times were you in a stranger's photo?
Little questions like these are wierd,but they keep your mind off what's really bothering you.
It's the kind of thoughts that consume you you...If you let them.
If you let them go to a certain degree,aloow them to have you,the results reflect your thoughts.
Cutting,violence,ani-social,silence...
All these things you could loose yourself in,reflect the way you let your thoughts
and trouble take over.
Everyone's watching you every moment of your life.
watching,waiting...
Does it bother you as much as It does me?
I saw a girl's profile,just by looking at it...
The anger,the hurt...it was everywhere.
I thought to myself,she's no better than me.She's just free-er to let her thoughts speak out loud.Or maybe so trapped it's the only way she can find comfort.
I felt a compassion towards this complete stranger,and my heart suddenly ached.I wanted to help her,yet I had no idea who she was.
Her picture was beautiful,but you could see it in her eyes.
The insecurities,the overwhelming anger.
I suddenly hurt,because she's like me.
I could have lashed out,cursed everyone out,say I don't a s**t about anyone or anything...so easily I could've blamed THEM.
But I guess I just had more discreet ways of crying fo help.
I was drowning,no way up or down.
Stuck in the abyss of nothing-ness.All over.
But then there was that single ray of light.The only way out.It has and always was there.
At seeing this,I only wished that it wasn't so painfully obvious.
My only way out was HIM.
Our heavenly father himself,
Why didn't I confide in him sooner?
You cannot trust in man for anything.
But this one important thing in my life,I know....I KNOW i can trust with my life.
His name means:"he who causes to become"
Jehovah of armies.
There's no more fear,no doubt.
But the pain is slowly and silently tying to leave me.
I only hope I can reach that so very lonely girl.