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Today, I've realized something!!! There will always be people who constantly push buttons, simultaneously!!!! That's not important though! I am here to say tha although there a people who do push incorrect buttons, you can work past that. Looking deep within yourself to find who you truly are is all that matters in the end!

I have let people treat me any way, and cry it all away later. I eventually got sick of crying, sick of hurting, sick of running away! Everyday I lived my life as a fake. I still do until this day. That doesn't mean that I'm two faced. If you look deep into this message you will see that by telling you this that I am trying to find my true self.

I am changing as of today, I know that I've said this to myself before, and I would probably continue until I'm fine the way I am. Being used, treated any kind of way, or whatever that serves no appropriate purpose is pointless. When you start to fall apart, you begin questioning yourself, life, and everything that exist in this life. For all of those that have thought of suicide, don't do it. Because nine times outta ten, you are to afraid of the pain. So you think because the pain you feel physically is nothing compared to the pain emotionally, you should just end yourself. How do I know, I used to be the same way. Until I realized that I have a purpose. I may not know just what it might be but I wouldn't still be alive if I didn't have a purpose.

Well that is all for right now, if you want me to write more stuff like this, request it please. I would appreciate the comments, too. Later! By the way, I'm sorry if this is like dropdead long or deprssing, but it's life what do you expect!

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