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I love distractions. Especially when they come in the form of going to my friend's house. I might just take Jen up on her offer. I can go over there at any time, day or night.

Today was alright I guess. Went over to Jen's house to hang out. Alexia and Tiffany worked on the boat while I just sat there. At least I know what I'm going to be sitting in when it's finished. Hopefully I don't sink the boat.

I'm glad I have an outlet for my emotions, without it I'd be seriously messed up. My ability to just let go of things helped more than I could have imagined. I still feel a twang of hurt, but not as bad. Though the one thing that isn't helping is my feelings for a certain someone. They're not completely gone. Having these feelings makes me feel dirty. Especially when my friend is dating him. I'm sick of being dirty, and having this weight on my chest. I was so close to getting it off, and it just got heavier. So the only way to make it feel less, is to say I wish to torture him. Part of me does, but I couldn't bring myself to. Little does he know that he has another person that cares.

Eh, but what am I going to do about it? I can't hurt my friend. Even though she ripped me to shreads. Only a select few are worthy of my wrath. And she isn't on that list. (Infact only two people are, and they're lucky they're far, far away.)

Didn't get my Eros Ramazzotti CD today. Though I will get it next weekend since tomorrow I need to get Jen a birthday present. She's more important than a stupid want for myself.

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