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Me Megan, and Rafael were tlking on three wayt last night..Untill 12:26.

Ok..So we were talkin and I found out that they are Boo, and Pumpkin..


Ok..And Albert was at Rafaels' so He insisted that we talk (Cause Megan, Rafael and me paired me up with him...They said we looked cute, and I realised that we do and I'm starting to really like Albert..)

So Rafeal put us on the phone twice..and we didn't really have much to talk about..
But everytime we got on the phone I started laughing(I guess it is how I blush over the phione..I don't know..)
(Ok..and we got paired up during Rafaels' B-day party..And I kep hugging Albert..)

So All Three of us were talking and Rafeal said something about me being Alberts Girlfriend..and I said that I would like that..So Rafeal decides to go tell him that..I was TOTALLY embarrased(EWWWW..I sound like a prep..Anyway..) SoAlbert siad that he didn't want me as his Girlfriend..(And I thought he sounded really irritated..)And I started crying a whole lot and I tried to hold it in..and Megan was like "Are you ok..?" and I said No..And I was cryin and so sad that I didn't want to watch my shows..My ANIME shows!!!...So Rafeal was upset because he doesn't like his friends to be upset and Megan tried to help..So they were both helping me..Meggi left because someone called so I was crying and talkin to Rafeal..And his mean side showed..and I thought he was pissed..So I asked him If he said and he said no...SO I felt ok about that..

So he told me that Albert had had like 6 G/fs' in like 3 months..So I was like..Ok..TThat makes sence...and like he didn't want a girlfriend now..(He said other stuff but I can't rember it at the moment..)And I explained to him that I don't want a B/F and I wanted someone that likes me, and I could label him if I wanted but he didn't label me, and it was all cool.....He said and asked that I wantede someone who liked me for me and understands me for who I am..(and some other stuff..)And I said that I liked how he put it and he said that was how he felt..

And I made Rafeal appologise and he kept sayin sorry..and I didn't think he knew what he was sayin sorry for so I bugged him till he found out that it was for tellin Albert that.

So I called Albert like a few hours ago and asked him if he was irritated with me..Cause he sounded like he was when Rafeal told him what he did..And he said he wasn't he was just irritated because Rafeal has been on him about that..(I think he has been on him about that sence the party..) So I understood...And he said he likes me as a friend and I understand..

Even though I haven't had a Boyfriend..I really seem to be wanting one yet at the same time not..I just want to be able to hang out and call someone..Because I have no one I can do that with..And I have barely any guy friends..and I think people I don't like are hittin on me..So I have many things I want..and when I find soemone..I guess I go after them as much as I can untill I cry over them..Yet I haven't backed off of Albert yet..And I don't know if I will for a while..the only reason I gave up on Chris was because I saw his Myspace..and He has turned into a creepy rapper person and he hasn't replied to me yet...

Yes I'm still sad about everything..But the blow will hopefully soften tomorrow..