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Goodbyes hurt... I was talking to a friend and I realized just how little I really know about myself. It was the questions like "How can you not know where you live?" that made me stop and think. Sure, there are the things I could see by looking in a mirror, but those aren't important. The things I'm honest about (or at least, think I'm honest about) don't sound like they could be real because I can't give the necessary detail. This hurts me a lot less than it would if I told everyone I enjoy talking to. I'm starting to have second thoughts now, so I'm going to leave before I let myself get pulled back. No matter how much it hurts, I have to go now. The longer I wait the worse the goodbye will be. I can't explain this terrible feeling I'm having in my chest as I write this and I do hope that someday I might meet some of my old friends again. Nana can't stop me from coming back out of sadness any better than I can, so I'm going to delete everything on my computer and start over. If I could, I would do an even better job and reinstall the entire OS, but, unfortunately, I don't have the discs for that. The more I type the harder it is to leave... I don't know if I can do this... But please, everyone who didn't think time spent with me was time wasted, hope or pray for my good health and my return after I have found myself... I can't force myself any longer, so I'm going to let Nana deal the finishing blow... Tama-chan, if you're reading this, I haven't forgotten my promise to you.

Posted by: xXx _ Neko-chan _ xXx Wed Oct 17, 2007 @ 02:52am

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Commented on: Wed Oct 17, 2007 @ 06:11am


	It is really sad not knowing where you come from, since it is a right, something that everyone should have. But unfortunately, some people don't. I hope you have success in your struggle to know yourself better. "No person is more unhappy than the one who is never in adversity; the greatest affliction of life is never to be afflicted."

Commented on: Wed Oct 17, 2007 @ 08:30pm


	Aww thats so sad crying hope you sucessfully finish and come back soon. Good luck

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Commented on: Wed Oct 17, 2007 @ 11:25pm


	Aw, Neko-chan. I hope you find what you are looking for.

Commented on: Sat Oct 20, 2007 @ 04:53pm


	Awwww. Neko-chan...I..really don't want you to leave. I'll miss you, and i wish you luck in finding yourself. But...I must say, it was nice talking with you and i enjoyed our time together. Although, i wish that i could convince you to stay, i understand your choice. So, i'll let you choose your own path heart At truth, i don't know myself probably any better than you know yourself. And i'm taking steps now to know myself better, but it's more impossible for me to be connected with myself. If that makes sense to you. So, if you need someone to talk to, my arms are always open. It's a bitter leave, but if you ever got back on, or if you ever make a new account. Please tell me, i want to know more about yourself, and whatever thats happened to you while you're gone. Luff you. ~Ellla

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Commented on: Wed Oct 31, 2007 @ 10:25am


	I shall miss the great Neko-Chan. It was fun to talk to you those times I did. I hope we'll get to talk again someday. I myself have no clue where i'm from. I know a part of me is from one area but the rest of my family...no clue. I don't have any idea about a lot of things if I like them or not. I've had thoughts of doing the same, just leaving to figure things out. But each time I think about it. I know i'll just end up sitting in my room like always just with no computer. I've pretty much no life because i'm shy and the things everyone else does, I don't. I've never felt another's touch. I envy those who know what they like and what their heritage is. Because when i'm asked.. I have no clue. Sometimes I feel like i'm making myself up. I tell people online I like affection...but never felt it. So what if I really don't? I always thought it was cool when i'd accidentally hug you, forgetting you don't like it from guys and stuff. You knew something about yourself that I don't know about me. I wish you a lot of luck in something i'll never manage to do. Enjoy yourself and I really do hope to talk again

Commented on: Sun Nov 04, 2007 @ 12:19am


	Good luck, Neko-chan and I hope you come back. I miss you. ~Kurayami

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Commented on: Thu Nov 08, 2007 @ 03:38am


	Hi, you can add Me, it's Amberose from Msn.

Commented on: Tue Nov 13, 2007 @ 12:48am


	Hey neko, tis pixie. You have to take care of yourself :] so get better so you can come back to us and talk to us. Get better <3 -pixie (who is now le disco candy B])

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