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What kind of girl will he come to like?

What is this sudden piercing pain in my heart?
It hurts.

What has he done to me?
Why can't I talk to him?
What does this mean?
When I'm with him, its hard to talk!
When I'm near him, I can't breathe!
My heart races as if it will explode!
Why does he not notice?

I wonder, why I'm so different?
Tomorrow I'll try again.
I'll talk to him when he is alone.
To breathe, talk.
To for once be noticed.

Get the message to him quickly!
I want to see his reaction.
Maybe I should do something completely unreasonable?
He might hate me.

It will make me cry,
I'll be afraid to face him the next day.
I'd be happy yet,
I'd be sad.

This really hurts,
I'm crushed.

Save me from him.
From being like this.

Why me?

They say that when you have love you see the world in different colors,
Ones beyond the basic colors.

This isn't love its my selfish wanting.
Grabbing the rainbow when its to high.


I must cut off all connections with him.
No matter how much I like him,
I won't get close.

Buried in the past it comes to haunt me.
It keeps returning.
I don't even know whats what anymore!

Rather than being broken,
Its as if I can't decide to be fixed, or stay broken.

Enough already!
I can't take this!

I'll stay broken.
Its hurting me!
I give up.
You win!

I have to get over this pain and just not wait.
I'm so confused as to how I lost the match.©