Sigh...where to begin?
I've had a horribly rough day, mentally today. I seem to of slid back into yet another depression. With some luck, it won't last long....
I lashed out at my mother though. I wish that she could see how damn annoying she can be. The only thing I could picture was my fist making contact with that smug little face of hers...and while I would never want to hit my mother, I wish that she would take it into account that sometimes I just don't want to talk...sometimes, I'm just not up for human contact...
I'm really sick and tired of health nut people...humans weren't intended to live forever, so I'll just live how I'd like to...thank you very much.
Right now I'm feeling so very drowsy...I just want lie down right now....If anything what would make me so very happy is if I could just lie down and sleep forever...it's not quite death and I'm not quite alive. I would love to just forget everything that bothers me and dream....
Alas, that is not permittable...that is not how humans should be.
Another thing that pesters me about days like these, is that for some reason everything I care about...everything that I love to do...I just don't seem to give a f*ck about any of them...and everything I like falls by the way side...*sigh*
In any case...yeah...that's how things are....this has been, just another update.
~Shinji T.
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She just doesn't understand the need for space and that is annoying...
We all have days like that... Last Friday I was convinced almost everything that could go wrong did... I was sooooo tempted to roll over and go back to sleep that morning... but I never would've gotten to come over and hang out with you... if I did that... and I'd probably have to deal with a far worse Monday if I did that... So maybe your better off trudging through those awful days... because something good can always come out of it...