12:37AM - 3:12PM -:- I relay a part of my history to Ariana.
Ariana says (12:37 AM):
Chase is probably the reason I'm weaboo and wanna be a detective, though, now that I think of it o___o
>:3 says (12:38 AM):
o.o
Ariana says (12:38 AM):
Because he really liked Pokemon, Dragonball, and Yu-gi-oh!..
Ariana says (12:38 AM):
So then I stayed up late to watch Dragonball Z.
>:3 says (12:38 AM):
8].
Ariana says (12:38 AM):
It was my favorite show. xDDDD
>:3 says (12:38 AM):
I loved DBZ.
>:3 says (12:38 AM):
and Totally Spies.
>:3 says (12:39 AM):
im so sry ur sick.. all i can do is comfort u in words. u think u
could've saved lives? u did, i've thought about jumping out my window,
or jumping out of the car, i REALLY was gonna do it, but i thought
about u and how we need eachother... suicide.. don't even think about
it. lecture matt on life to not life. he doesn't kno what happens when
he dies, but he does know there's such thing as hope in life. whatever
u feel, feel like doing the right thing. if u feel sad, my advice is
move on. it sounds rough, but it's the truth, if ur happy, then u can
help the sad.. a.k.a. my duty! i want u to feel better soon. luv u
muchly!.. couldn't live without u... literally. X_O X_O
>:3 says (12:39 AM):
lol... ^
Ariana says (12:39 AM):
And then when we'd go to the park, we'd go look in the like.. pit of trash and we'd find stuff like old newspapers, and then make up a murder story with some butler who committed the murder or something. xDD
>:3 says (12:39 AM):
I remember saying it, it's strange.
Ariana says (12:39 AM):
Also probably why I like murder mysteries..
>:3 says (12:39 AM):
]: I wish I had a friend to do that with.
Ariana says (12:40 AM):
Play detective murder mystery? 8D
>:3 says (12:40 AM):
Ya. Or something of the like.
>:3 says (12:40 AM):
I would always go with my Grandma to the park.
>:3 says (12:40 AM):
Prolly because I didn't have anyone to hang out with.
Ariana says (12:41 AM):
.. I wonder if Chase is weaboo now or has moved on from being weaboo ]:
>:3 says (12:41 AM):
Do you think he has a myspace?
Ariana says (12:41 AM):
I lost contact with all my friends from Nevada xD
Ariana says (12:41 AM):
......... hey
Ariana says (12:41 AM):
that's an interesting thought
>:3 says (12:41 AM):
that's how I got people from my elementary school razz
>:3 says (12:41 AM):
You have to realize
>:3 says (12:41 AM):
6th grade I knew practically nobody
>:3 says (12:41 AM):
9th grade I knew practically nobody.
Ariana says (12:42 AM):
...... I just realized I did actually have one good friend back when I lived in Nevada, and that was Chase, because everyone else was just like "LOL I B BACKSTABBER 8D" and he was just like "HI I'M WEABOO. 8D" :c
Ariana says (12:43 AM):
.. why aren't I listening to Kodomo no Jikan's OP D8
>:3 says (12:43 AM):
]:
>:3 says (12:43 AM):
Do you remember his last name?
Ariana says (12:44 AM):
Not really. xD;
Ariana says (12:44 AM):
Uhh..
Ariana says (12:44 AM):
.. phonebook-san
Ariana says (12:44 AM):
I think.. -checks phone book?-
>:3 says (12:44 AM):
You have his number? xP
Ariana says (12:44 AM):
I think..
>:3 says (12:45 AM):
this is sam 2 years ago:
>:3 says (12:45 AM):
HEY! You're one year older today, but you probably already knew that. My Saundee bear is growing up so fast. Just four more birthdays until you're 18! Arent you excited? If you think about it, four years isn't that long. I just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday anyway. I hate gum, but today my friend gave me a yellow piece, and it tasted like spearmint! Everyone was gone today at school, because of Singers and Swingers I'm guessing. That guy that I might go to the dance with, looks like you in a way. Except maybe he's just a little bit taller. I have loads of homework, tomorrow my school starts late. Two hours late, sleep in! My friend told me to dress sexy for Donavan. I just say, "I only dress sexy for one man, and thats Saunders." Then I'm thinking, besides, guys should like me for who I am, right? And not my banana muffins or yum yums, lmao. Anyways I will tallk to you later, luv ya so much. (maybe like a husband, lol, one of my friends said that me and you should be "married" not rly married but..well u might get what I mean, or what she means) LUVZ!
>:3 says (12:46 AM):
I think I know why a lot of people hate middle schoolers now.
>:3 says (12:47 AM):
this is why i doubt just about everything nowadays:
>:3 says (12:47 AM):
I missed you so much. Last night when Amber IMed you, that was me! I couldn't help it, I had walked all the way to her house with Shaina, and we slept over! It was fun, her sister's friend slept over too. We all watched movies, and had lots of fun. In the morning we locked her sister out of the house, lol. I saw your messages on aim, are you okay? Call me anytime, if it works, my mom will just think its a cellphone number, she doesnt know much, lol. Amber said I was a slut today, and I didn't disagree, because now that I think about it, I kind of am. Just by what I wear, but I don't sleep with every guy I meet. Shaina said she could see me and you being all lovey towards eachother, but she can't see me and anyone else, it weirds her out. My sister thought Shaina was a guy when she saw us walking today, well I gotta finish this piece of paper for english! I love you so much, my weekend was the best!
Love me forever, promise?
Sammy
>:3 says (12:48 AM):
Get a good night's sleep for me. You won't regret it.
Love forever
Saunders
P.S. I promise until the day I die.
>:3 says (12:49 AM):
That's why I always hated making promises to you... I guess
>:3 says (12:49 AM):
It always made me doubt myself.
>:3 says (12:49 AM):
Looking back.
Ariana says (12:53 AM):
Hi back o.o;
Ariana says (12:53 AM):
Wall of text. -reads-
>:3 says (12:53 AM):
Hi x3
>:3 says (12:54 AM):
i guess i'll send you that really long one. with a crazy comittment.
>:3 says (12:54 AM):
forward'd
Ariana says (12:55 AM):
Ohh, I see why you hate making promises. D:
>:3 says (12:55 AM):
And then Erica and I went to the dance...
>:3 says (12:55 AM):
and she wanted a little more
>:3 says (12:55 AM):
and I said well
>:3 says (12:56 AM):
and I think I told you, but I hate refusing.
>:3 says (12:56 AM):
And it grew...
Ariana says (12:56 AM):
Ohh.
>:3 says (12:56 AM):
and I felt like I left Sam in the dust.
>:3 says (12:56 AM):
But she was smart enough to get out of the internet life.
Ariana says (12:56 AM):
Oh.. D:
>:3 says (12:59 AM):
neh would you like to hear the story of my ex girlfriends?
Sounds like the least thing a guy would talk about.
Ariana says (1:00 AM):
If you'd like to tell me the story, sure. I'll listen.
>:3 says (1:00 AM):
First there was Michelle.
>:3 says (1:00 AM):
actually
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
to go way back
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
there was Augusta...
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
daycare
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
before Elementary School
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
We were the closest.
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
I remember she'd say "Stop it"
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
And I would say something utterly ridiculous to cheer her up like "Top it" or something like that.
>:3 says (1:01 AM):
And we'd always laugh at it.
>:3 says (1:02 AM):
And I remember I was jealous that she took pink medicine, because it looked delicious.
>:3 says (1:02 AM):
And we'd always play with each other.
>:3 says (1:02 AM):
We were close.
Ariana says (1:02 AM):
Aww. ;_;
>:3 says (1:03 AM):
I don't think I had doubted pure chivalry in my heart since I've known her. I've always enjoyed being the kind gentleman type.
>:3 says (1:03 AM):
I lost her eventually, as I have with many of my ex's
>:3 says (1:04 AM):
Couldn't find a facebook nor myspace.
>:3 says (1:04 AM):
I forgot her last name.
>:3 says (1:04 AM):
Eventually, 1st grade came.
>:3 says (1:04 AM):
I thought it was very similar to daycare because to me, the children seemed like toddlers.
>:3 says (1:05 AM):
To the right of my desk sat Nola Darden, to the left, Ginny Cross on the first day of school.
>:3 says (1:05 AM):
Ms. Poskocil was my teacher, and we grew close...
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
but... recording back to Kindergarten, I believe I had met Michelle.
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
Best friend.
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
Couldn't have been who I am without her.
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
She wore glasses and loved pokemon.
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
We'd make believe we were pokemon on the playground.
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
I was Gengar xP
Ariana says (1:06 AM):
Awwwwwwwwww. ;___;
>:3 says (1:06 AM):
She was Pikachu, naturally.
Ariana says (1:07 AM):
A wise choice. 8D
>:3 says (1:07 AM):
I can't quite remember anyone else.
>:3 says (1:07 AM):
She only lived up and around the street from my dad's house.
>:3 says (1:07 AM):
She was the first who I felt semi-comfortable talking on the phone too.
>:3 says (1:08 AM):
I was always scared until my dad kept encouraging me and scolding me that I had to do it, and not him.
Ariana says (1:08 AM):
I'm not comfortable talking on the phone to anyone even now, not even my mom, I get all scared of talking to her on the phone and I don't have any idea why.. o__o
>:3 says (1:08 AM):
So we would play at each other's houses very often, more often at her's
>:3 says (1:08 AM):
And I met her little sister and her dog Sparky
>:3 says (1:09 AM):
I do get a little scared of talking on the phone too sometimes, afraid the wrong words will come out, or the person won't perceive your words correctly.
>:3 says (1:10 AM):
I'm probably the most relaxed talking to Lindsey because I seriously don't care what comes out of my mouth razz
>:3 says (1:10 AM):
Umm well... one winter, a snowy one, I went to Michelle's house..
>:3 says (1:10 AM):
Michelle Trice, and her sister Kristen Trice.
>:3 says (1:10 AM):
We attempted building an igloo.
Ariana says (1:11 AM):
.. omg. xDDD
>:3 says (1:11 AM):
This, being impossible, (unfortunately for us, we had no idea it would be this hard) we finalized it as a snow fort.
>:3 says (1:11 AM):
and played inside of it, and it was a great time.
>:3 says (1:12 AM):
Around that time, we would trade pokemon on our gameboys; she had a pink one, I had a yellow one.
>:3 says (1:12 AM):
I had Red version, I can't remember what she had.
>:3 says (1:12 AM):
I had a Blastoise as my main.
>:3 says (1:12 AM):
She had a Charizard, fire being her favorite type.
>:3 says (1:13 AM):
She moved away after 3rd grade to Twin Hickory.
>:3 says (1:13 AM):
I visited her house there a couple times, but not too much.
>:3 says (1:13 AM):
She had a PS2 and Kingdom Hearts, and I was jealous.
>:3 says (1:13 AM):
We played flash light tag sometimes, and we'd all hide together from her dad sometimes. It was so much fun.
>:3 says (1:14 AM):
When she moved, she had gotten a salamander or two.
>:3 says (1:14 AM):
I think she named one after me.
Ariana says (1:15 AM):
Aw. Cute. ;_;
>:3 says (1:15 AM):
We started to grow dim, and my dad says I couldn't live without her. He said I intended to marry her, and she was the only one right for me.
>:3 says (1:16 AM):
Now that I think back, I don't think I disagree. She was what my dad called my "lovey"
>:3 says (1:16 AM):
She called me "crazy boy"
Ariana says (1:16 AM):
Awwwwwwwwwwwww. That's cute. ;___;
>:3 says (1:16 AM):
She'd knock me on the head sometimes razz
>:3 says (1:16 AM):
It'd hurt, but I knew she was just playing.
>:3 says (1:17 AM):
I remember not too long before we grew really dim, she came over my mom's house, and we played in the sprinkler.
>:3 says (1:17 AM):
Moving on to Middle School. A whole new experience with a forgotten past.
>:3 says (1:19 AM):
I knew nobody in 6th grade. Not a single person in my 1st period. Sameer and Shawn were in my English class, I barely knew them. Brock was in that class too. The only class I had with him in all of middle school. He of course supported me throughout all my years, and was the best pal I could ever had. He had always recognized me as being smarter than him until current days... well he respects me just the same, but I feel he deserves a lot more recognition. He has great goals for the future, and I wish him the best of luck.
>:3 says (1:19 AM):
With 6th grade gone with confusion, and a feeling of loneliness, 7th grade arrives.
>:3 says (1:20 AM):
My dad claimed it was his worst year.
Ariana says (1:20 AM):
D:
>:3 says (1:20 AM):
I couldn't say much different after the first marking period.
>:3 says (1:20 AM):
An F in History.
>:3 says (1:20 AM):
I was pretty much grounded all that year.
>:3 says (1:20 AM):
If my mom was with me, I couldn't even look at the television screen, educational or not.
>:3 says (1:21 AM):
This was the time of extreme scrictness between my mom and step-dad.
Ariana says (1:21 AM):
Aww....
Ariana says (1:21 AM):
;_;
>:3 says (1:21 AM):
Worse than soap in the mouth back in Elementary School.
>:3 says (1:21 AM):
Worse than standing in the corner for 15 minutes.
>:3 says (1:22 AM):
No sitting or looking around was allowed.
>:3 says (1:22 AM):
Had to be in the corner.
>:3 says (1:22 AM):
I loved the sound of that beeper.
>:3 says (1:22 AM):
It was freaky though... those times.
>:3 says (1:22 AM):
I'd do something so mild, maybe I was trying to be funny, but it would tick them off, and I would get 2 weeks at a time for each little thing.
Ariana says (1:23 AM):
... that's awful. D:
>:3 says (1:23 AM):
They made it 2 weeks, because they made an excuse that I was at my dad's half the time, so it was considered one week.
>:3 says (1:23 AM):
I met Alix, my cousin's friend, and she was really nice to me.
>:3 says (1:24 AM):
Inches taller, and I had dreams of being with her. Probably the first idea of a girlfriend had struck me. It never happened though. I never planned on it either.
>:3 says (1:25 AM):
Then I met Faye.
>:3 says (1:25 AM):
Faye Huyen.
>:3 says (1:25 AM):
I'd only see her on the bus... but we got gradually closer.
>:3 says (1:25 AM):
I emailed her once tensely, in somewhat of a manner to express that I wanted to go out with her.
>:3 says (1:25 AM):
She was awestruck.
>:3 says (1:26 AM):
And I was feeling lame for sending the thought to her through an email.
>:3 says (1:26 AM):
Nonetheless, no confirmations were defined, but we always sat next to each other on the bus.
>:3 says (1:26 AM):
She lived in my mom's neighborhood.
>:3 says (1:26 AM):
I remember once we rode bikes, but that's like the only time we "went out" on a date.
>:3 says (1:27 AM):
Besides, her sister came with her tagging behind.
>:3 says (1:27 AM):
She kind of left her behind, but I wanted her to catch up... maybe to break some silence.
>:3 says (1:27 AM):
I remember when she called to see if we could ride bikes...
>:3 says (1:27 AM):
My sister made fun of me for having a girlfriend.
>:3 says (1:27 AM):
I said nothing and just took the phone.
Ariana says (1:28 AM):
x3
>:3 says (1:28 AM):
Nowadays, it's hard for me to believe that Faye's in High School.
>:3 says (1:29 AM):
In fact, it just struck me that she actually IS in High School.
>:3 says (1:29 AM):
I just found her facebook :]
>:3 says (1:29 AM):
err
>:3 says (1:30 AM):
Michelle Trice's
Ariana says (1:30 AM):
Ohh. 8D
>:3 says (1:30 AM):
She, seriously has to have had the biggest factor of my personality.
>:3 says (1:30 AM):
Anyways, Faye and I sort of drifted, relationship wise, since it didn't really go anywhere in the first place.
>:3 says (1:30 AM):
And I met Ashley Mottley.
>:3 says (1:31 AM):
I visited her myspace recently..
>:3 says (1:31 AM):
She was the cutest thing I had ever seen, it was funny, because I thought she was going to be one of those people who would never say a word to me.
>:3 says (1:31 AM):
And in 7th grade, she sort of chose me over Kyle Ward.
>:3 says (1:32 AM):
Who, at the time, was her current boyfriend.
>:3 says (1:32 AM):
I saw no connection how that could have possibly happened.
>:3 says (1:32 AM):
Kyle was a hater, probably a homophobe an anime basher.
>:3 says (1:32 AM):
Ashley loved anime and the such, and always had a smile on.
Ariana says (1:32 AM):
.... wow
Ariana says (1:33 AM):
"Opposites Attract"?
>:3 says (1:33 AM):
So it seemed.
Ariana says (1:33 AM):
.. or just no meaning whatsoever to that? ]:
>:3 says (1:33 AM):
Anyways, I came about.
>:3 says (1:33 AM):
She started sitting a seat back from her regular seat in Spanish 1B.
>:3 says (1:33 AM):
So we could talk.
>:3 says (1:33 AM):
I was always quiet and shy around her, as I am with most people.
>:3 says (1:34 AM):
We had some of the best emails sent back and forth.
>:3 says (1:34 AM):
By the way, her email was Animangakat@aol.com
>:3 says (1:35 AM):
I remember I was in Northern Virginia, just me and my sister in my grandparents house.
>:3 says (1:35 AM):
The first time I had seen anything on Adult Swim was shown to me.
>:3 says (1:36 AM):
Err well, I had never stayed up to see the warning that I shouldn't be watching the stuff.
>:3 says (1:36 AM):
My bedtime was 8:00 in elementary school
>:3 says (1:36 AM):
8:30, then 9:00 eventually, then 9:30 eventually, becoming 10:00.
Ariana says (1:36 AM):
OMG LAWL I ALWAYS TURNED THE VOLUME DOWN AT THE WARNING THAT I SHOULDN'T BE WATCHING DBZ OR WHATEVER. xDDDDDD
>:3 says (1:36 AM):
DBZ didn't come on adult swim ]:
Ariana says (1:36 AM):
.. it did D:
>:3 says (1:36 AM):
o.O
>:3 says (1:37 AM):
I must have been late.
>:3 says (1:37 AM):
I only remember it on Toonami.
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
That's where I saw it? I thought. ;_; Not Adult Swim, that.. one with the robot
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
YEAH!
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
TOONAMI!
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
WHEN IT PLAYED LATE AT NIGHT!
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
RIGHT.
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
I'M STUPID.
Ariana says (1:37 AM):
I don't remember nothin'.
>:3 says (1:37 AM):
Lol, I love you Ariana xP
Ariana says (1:38 AM):
I love you too! 8DDD
>:3 says (1:38 AM):
Toonami was like 6-8 or 6-10 I think.
Ariana says (1:38 AM):
.. oh
Ariana says (1:38 AM):
I know I did watch Adult Swim, but I wonder which animu I had seen on it..
>:3 says (1:38 AM):
Then Miguzi took over, and Toonami was pushed only to Saturday.
Ariana says (1:38 AM):
I thought I stayed awake until like.... 2AM ;_;
Ariana says (1:39 AM):
I really liked Bulma until she got a haircut. And the last episode I had seen of DBZ was with that pink guy who was gonna eat the whole world or something? iono.
>:3 says (1:39 AM):
Anyways, I remember I was online on dial-up in Northern Virginia, and Ashley and I were finally bf and gf. Kyle's IM window popped up and it said "******** you".
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
I really didn't have much say, since it was all Ashley's decision.
Ariana says (1:40 AM):
Nice way to handle things, always. 8D
Ariana says (1:40 AM):
RITE?
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
no...
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
I was scared... seriously.
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
Kyle never really liked me anyway.
Ariana says (1:40 AM):
No, I mean how he sent that to you o___o
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
And me stealing his girlfriend?
Ariana says (1:40 AM):
.. why can't anyone tell when I'm being sarcastic ;_;
>:3 says (1:40 AM):
oh razz
Ariana says (1:41 AM):
ALRIGHT ARIANA. ENOUGH WITH THE UN-FUNNY COMMENTARY. SHUT UP.
>:3 says (1:41 AM):
Ack, I'm looking at the clock and thinking it's missing a 1, because I should be asleep by 11:41. But it's 1:41.
>:3 says (1:41 AM):
Lol -hugs-..
Ariana says (1:41 AM):
D:
Ariana says (1:42 AM):
... I just realized I don't have a bedtime o__o no set bedtime. At all.
Ariana says (1:42 AM):
And never have..
>:3 says (1:42 AM):
I still have the movie tickets that I got when I went with Ashley to see Fast Pitch.
>:3 says (1:42 AM):
The semi-date that never really was a date.
>:3 says (1:42 AM):
I never really went out with people.
>:3 says (1:43 AM):
Well, eventually I met Sammy.
>:3 says (1:43 AM):
A.k.a. Samantha, a.k.a. Sam.
>:3 says (1:43 AM):
On neopets.
>:3 says (1:43 AM):
It started with this one neomail from some girl named Amber...
>:3 says (1:44 AM):
and I liked Amber a lot at first...
>:3 says (1:44 AM):
until I met her friend Sam...
>:3 says (1:44 AM):
Anyway, they were really nice and all... and were probably the first people I had ever gotten genuinely close to on the internet.
>:3 says (1:45 AM):
Did I tell you what my very first email address was?
Ariana says (1:45 AM):
Nope. xD
>:3 says (1:45 AM):
BuddyMeganium@aol.com
Ariana says (1:45 AM):
My first email address was uhh... minnieariana or something retarded like that
>:3 says (1:45 AM):
xP Cutee.
>:3 says (1:46 AM):
Well, my dad called me buddy. And my main pokemon on Silver version was a Meganium.
Ariana says (1:46 AM):
Ahh.
>:3 says (1:46 AM):
I think that was 3rd grade.
>:3 says (1:46 AM):
Then I got mewchux i think. razz
>:3 says (1:47 AM):
Oh yeah.... I talked to Marissa a WHOLE lot on the internet.
>:3 says (1:47 AM):
She's been to my schools ever since elementary school.
>:3 says (1:47 AM):
Not many people have followed the same route of schools...
>:3 says (1:47 AM):
All 3 are in different districts.
>:3 says (1:48 AM):
She moved, like I did...
>:3 says (1:48 AM):
Now that I think of it, she's probably sleeping a few blocks down the street.
>:3 says (1:48 AM):
We started to take different paths late in Elementary School.
>:3 says (1:48 AM):
I never really heard from her until this year.
>:3 says (1:49 AM):
She's transferred into my Algebra II class.
>:3 says (1:49 AM):
I saw her once in a play, and I think she thought that it was nice for me to see it, but at the time I felt like I was a stalker.
>:3 says (1:49 AM):
Anyways... 8th grade came.
>:3 says (1:49 AM):
I thought 8th grade was the best.
>:3 says (1:49 AM):
I think I still do.
>:3 says (1:50 AM):
There were great people, people who I never wanted to leave.
>:3 says (1:50 AM):
The year I had my halloween party...
>:3 says (1:50 AM):
And lots of people came.
>:3 says (1:50 AM):
I miss them so much.
Ariana says (1:50 AM):
D:
>:3 says (1:51 AM):
They were what made me glad to go to school.
Ariana says (1:51 AM):
;_; One second, I'd like a slice of (loli haet) pizza, you can continue, but I'll be away for a few minutes..
Ariana says (1:51 AM):
Brb. x.x
>:3 says (1:53 AM):
Matt Nguyen, Nathan Bellows, Melody Milleker, Dean Seal, Sam Conners, Brock Davis, Dillon Kolhoff, so many more
>:3 says (1:53 AM):
Alexa Bratton.
>:3 says (1:54 AM):
We went to Kings Dominion
>:3 says (1:54 AM):
and soon after Sam and I grew apart, I got a non-internet girlfriend...
>:3 says (1:54 AM):
Erica Cousins.
>:3 says (1:54 AM):
the first dance of 8th grade, I was scared to dance with her, but I'm sure she hinted it.
>:3 says (1:54 AM):
I danced with her the second one.
>:3 says (1:55 AM):
And it blossomed into something bigger.
>:3 says (1:55 AM):
I remember once I visited where she took karate.
>:3 says (1:55 AM):
She was a black belt, and she still trains.
>:3 says (1:55 AM):
My dad always joked about how she'd beat me up.
>:3 says (1:55 AM):
If I didn't appease her.
>:3 says (1:56 AM):
I rode my bike to her neighborhood, and she rode back to mine...
>:3 says (1:56 AM):
we sat on the driveway....
>:3 says (1:56 AM):
and talked about all sorts of things.
>:3 says (1:56 AM):
One day she claimed she had almost gotten raped by a guy at karate.
>:3 says (1:57 AM):
I thought this was impossible... nothing bad ever happened in my life.
>:3 says (1:57 AM):
"I lived in a place and time where crime didn't occur" was the mindset I was familiar with.
>:3 says (1:58 AM):
Anyways, being good friends with Mary-Kate Gallagher, and Holly McAllese, they told me stuff.
>:3 says (1:58 AM):
Especially MK.
>:3 says (1:58 AM):
Erica soon after claimed she was definitely raped.
>:3 says (1:59 AM):
I felt so sympathetic, and had no idea what to do.
>:3 says (2:00 AM):
She claimed to be taking birth control pills, and that her sister supplied her with them.
>:3 says (2:00 AM):
She didn't want anyone to know about it except me and MK.
>:3 says (2:00 AM):
MK eventually convinced me that this pregnancy was a fraud.
>:3 says (2:00 AM):
I didn't believe it at first... but then it hit me so hard...
>:3 says (2:00 AM):
that I just grew apart from Erica...
Ariana says (2:02 AM):
I'm back o.o;
Ariana says (2:02 AM):
-reads-
Ariana says (2:04 AM):
Ouch o_o
Ariana says (2:04 AM):
Why would she lie about getting raped? o__o
>:3 says (2:04 AM):
MK wanted to tell Erica's parents because it would be for the better.
>:3 says (2:04 AM):
But if Erica stopped her...
>:3 says (2:04 AM):
then the only logical explanation was for attention.
>:3 says (2:04 AM):
I thought Erica would never do something like that...
Ariana says (2:05 AM):
..... this sounds familiar
>:3 says (2:05 AM):
The Boy who Cried Wolf?
Ariana says (2:05 AM):
No, Sae :c
>:3 says (2:05 AM):
(that's who I was in the 5th grade play xP)
>:3 says (2:05 AM):
I guess Erica knew a little about Sam...
Ariana says (2:05 AM):
She lied about being pregnant to this one guy so he wouldn't leave her, but he just gave her lots of money and like, left./ARIANA I SAID STOP COMPARING REAL LIFE TO ANIMU
>:3 says (2:06 AM):
and wanted to confirm that she wasn't part of this relationship.
>:3 says (2:06 AM):
Sam had ILY notes on my comments, and maybe Erica had seen them.
>:3 says (2:07 AM):
Moving slowly away from Erica, in my freshman year around December I met Alyssa.
>:3 says (2:07 AM):
I had only known her as DarkMousy898, however.
>:3 says (2:07 AM):
A religion topic spurred in a Gaia Fishing room.
>:3 says (2:08 AM):
We argued about beliefs.
>:3 says (2:08 AM):
I'm not going to lie, but she seriously got me to believe some stuff that I would have never thought would be possible to believe.
Ariana says (2:09 AM):
I remember that, you said something about that back when Lelly and I were talking to you you once, and you said you had met your soul-mate, and Lelly was like "IS IT UHH... KYOSHI!" xDDD
>:3 says (2:09 AM):
Everything was great about her; she would never get mad at me... and we'd always be happy.
>:3 says (2:09 AM):
lol
>:3 says (2:09 AM):
I remember, we said we were soul mates xP
Ariana says (2:10 AM):
But you had said "I found my sole mate" :c
Ariana says (2:10 AM):
KELLY APPROVES--
Ariana says (2:10 AM):
-SHOT-
>:3 says (2:11 AM):
She was with "Dalton" and I kind of lol'd how they were in an internet relationship because I thought it was absurd, but I sympathized and didn't make a big deal out of it since Sammy and I were extremely close..
>:3 says (2:11 AM):
Btw, Erica's Gaia is acirevul.
Ariana says (2:11 AM):
And EO oekaki name. 8D
>:3 says (2:12 AM):
oh ya xP
Ariana says (2:12 AM):
/ariana, shut up ]:
>:3 says (2:13 AM):
Anyway... Dalton wasn't on for about a month
Ariana says (2:13 AM):
RECIPE FOR DISASTER? -gasps-
>:3 says (2:13 AM):
Mousy (I couldn't refer to her as Alyssa... I don't know why) had thought he abandoned her.
>:3 says (2:13 AM):
She started to date someone else besides Dalton, because she suspected he avoided her.
>:3 says (2:14 AM):
I thought he just wasn't on gaia all too much.
>:3 says (2:14 AM):
Turns out I was right, and she dumped whatshisface and went back with him.
>:3 says (2:14 AM):
I met Mousy's best friend and her best friend's bf, who was a furry.
>:3 says (2:14 AM):
Mousy was scared of furries.
>:3 says (2:15 AM):
Lots of confusion between relationships and whatnots.
>:3 says (2:15 AM):
eventually Mousy and I somehow became "substitution" relationships
>:3 says (2:15 AM):
to cheer each other up when we don't have a significant other.
>:3 says (2:16 AM):
but it grew into something else.
>:3 says (2:16 AM):
At one point I was tempted to spend 50$ for donation letters to sell back in order to buy her a kiki.
>:3 says (2:16 AM):
It was like all I had.
Ariana says (2:16 AM):
Awwww.
Ariana says (2:17 AM):
Adorable. ;__;
>:3 says (2:17 AM):
She promptly refused though.
>:3 says (2:17 AM):
She wouldn't want me to spend money on her p::
>:3 says (2:17 AM):
I told her about how I bashed my head in the wall while my mom was recording on New Years eve.
>:3 says (2:18 AM):
Because I hated myself so bad that day.
>:3 says (2:18 AM):
I think I've told you, yes?
Ariana says (2:18 AM):
Uhh.. not sure.
Ariana says (2:18 AM):
I think I'd remember if you had told me. o___o
>:3 says (2:18 AM):
Well... I was supposed to eat sweet potatoes and wasn't allowed to leave the table until I had.
Ariana says (2:18 AM):
..... ;__;
>:3 says (2:18 AM):
Sweet potatoes and squash are my least favorite foods.
Ariana says (2:18 AM):
I know. D:
>:3 says (2:18 AM):
And I thought it was pretty strange how this would happen at this age.
>:3 says (2:19 AM):
Because I've never had trouble with eating bad tasting foods since what elementary school?
>:3 says (2:19 AM):
and I was so frustrated, and my mom was really pissed that I wouldn't even try them.
Ariana says (2:20 AM):
D:
>:3 says (2:20 AM):
Then I began bashing my head on the window behind me in hopes I would have a concussion so I wouldn't have to eat the sweet potatoes. If I didn't, I would have to stay there, so it was the only logic I had left in my mind.
Ariana says (2:20 AM):
..... so you REALLY hate sweet potatoes. ;_;
>:3 says (2:20 AM):
My mom tried to restrain me, but I kept bashing, and she started screaming that I had to go to my room.
Ariana says (2:21 AM):
That's what I'd do if I was forced to eat the dinner Bethany had at her birthday party every night. D8
>:3 says (2:21 AM):
I ran to my room with tears.
Ariana says (2:21 AM):
...... ;_;
>:3 says (2:21 AM):
Aww T^T
>:3 says (2:21 AM):
I got upstairs, and continued the bashing on the wall next to the attic door.
>:3 says (2:21 AM):
Because I just felt horrible and hated myself completely.
>:3 says (2:22 AM):
I remember before then, around Christmas time, I would think about Mousy everywhere I went.
>:3 says (2:23 AM):
I'd look at the stars and think of her. I was at my uncle's once for his birthday, and I walked up and down the really long street staring at the sky thinking of her.
>:3 says (2:23 AM):
I'd think of her when skating with friends.
>:3 says (2:23 AM):
And just all the time.
>:3 says (2:23 AM):
(Another reason why I feel I don't make you feel special.)
Ariana says (2:23 AM):
THE STALKER-LIKE FLAME IN YOUR HEART HAD BEEN IGNITED!
>:3 says (2:23 AM):
lol xP
Ariana says (2:23 AM):
o.o; Why?
>:3 says (2:24 AM):
Because sometimes I feel so much of the stuff I've done with you has been repeated material that I've done with other girls.
>:3 says (2:24 AM):
And I feel so guilty, but it really is true feelings.
Ariana says (2:24 AM):
Don't feel guilty, then.
>:3 says (2:24 AM):
And I guess I'd feel bad if you didn't know about my complete past.
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
Back to the part where I'm bashing my head in the wall.
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
My mom takes the recorder and films me.
Ariana says (2:25 AM):
..... I just lost my train of thought because I realized I have no past o__o
Ariana says (2:25 AM):
..... ;_;
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
This has happened several times before.
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
Except
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
I'm not trying to kill myself.
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
I'm just in hysterics and tears.
>:3 says (2:25 AM):
And it looks stupid on film because I'm so old.
Ariana says (2:25 AM):
..... omg.
Ariana says (2:26 AM):
I'm sorry. ;__;
>:3 says (2:26 AM):
The time previous to new year's, I had successfully attacked my mom and knocked her down.
Ariana says (2:26 AM):
.... o____o;
>:3 says (2:26 AM):
But this time, my step-dad was in the way, so I couldn't stop the recording.
Ariana says (2:26 AM):
Oh...
Ariana says (2:26 AM):
But that's like torture. ;_;
>:3 says (2:26 AM):
I think I've made some dents in the wall as well as my head.
Ariana says (2:27 AM):
... D:
>:3 says (2:27 AM):
I think i have some uneven lumps on my head.
>:3 says (2:27 AM):
The time before, my mom sympathized with me, and I couldn't stop crying, because I felt she cared... but inside I still had an intense rage of hate towards her.
>:3 says (2:27 AM):
I have for the longest time now.
>:3 says (2:28 AM):
Mousy helped me a lot through that stage of life.
>:3 says (2:28 AM):
Nearing February, she'd say I was going silent on her though.......
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
It hadn't gotten to me that her crave of attention was unfeedable.
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
And I fed it as much as I could.
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
Until Valentine's day...
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
We broke up then.
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
And full hate sprang lose for a few weeks or maybe a month.
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
Nothing good was said about any of us.
>:3 says (2:29 AM):
Full fledged arguments, no sympathy.
>:3 says (2:30 AM):
Brute force, no siding whatsoever.
>:3 says (2:30 AM):
We were on our own planes.
>:3 says (2:30 AM):
... (err by that I mean like plane figures... do you know what I'm saying?)
Ariana says (2:30 AM):
Yes. xD;
>:3 says (2:31 AM):
We just collapsed.
>:3 says (2:31 AM):
And didn't talk for a long time.
>:3 says (2:31 AM):
It's been like that for awhile... actually about until now.
>:3 says (2:31 AM):
Of course I met you around that time... and she was upset that I knew you, I suppose.
Ariana says (2:32 AM):
... o__o;
Ariana says (2:32 AM):
Just because you knew me?
>:3 says (2:32 AM):
Well...
>:3 says (2:32 AM):
I guess because I started to talk to you more often.
Ariana says (2:33 AM):
COOL. AM I A FAMOUS INTERNET STALKER, WITHOUT KNOWING IT!?-- .. oh
>:3 says (2:33 AM):
lol/// xP
>:3 says (2:33 AM):
Ellie and I began to know each other around that time too.
>:3 says (2:33 AM):
At the beginning of the year, I had similar thoughts as I did with Ashley.
>:3 says (2:33 AM):
"We'd never meet"
>:3 says (2:34 AM):
I started liking you long before I decided to be with Ellie...
>:3 says (2:34 AM):
I never really told you I was "with Ellie"
>:3 says (2:34 AM):
because it was never supposed to happen.
Ariana says (2:35 AM):
I knew due to Angie though, I think, she said something to me once, when she found out Ellie had copied a picture that she entered in the originality contest Angie held..
>:3 says (2:35 AM):
I hated the fact that I was Ellie's boyfriend because it seemed like it hurt you, and if not me, for dating someone I don't truly love.
Ariana says (2:35 AM):
Ohh. D:
>:3 says (2:35 AM):
Because I've loved you ever since, what March?
>:3 says (2:36 AM):
New York event was in March...
Ariana says (2:37 AM):
Angie had asked me if Ellie's contest entry looked anything like this one picture she had found on photobucket, and they were very much alike, and she knew that you actually knew Ellie, so she asked you, and she had told me that you said you were Ellie's boyfriend, and that you'd talk to her about copying the picture, so I was like ".. wait, what" xD;
Ariana says (2:37 AM):
Though I never asked Angie about it, I was just like "Ohh, okay.". -shrugs-
>:3 says (2:38 AM):
]:
>:3 says (2:38 AM):
Can you tell me why?
Ariana says (2:38 AM):
Why what..? o.o
>:3 says (2:38 AM):
Umm... like
>:3 says (2:39 AM):
What was the reason why you didn't ask? Or were you just not interested?
Ariana says (2:39 AM):
Ask Angie?
Ariana says (2:39 AM):
Because I figured that she wouldn't know, and she might've asked you, and I didn't want her to talk to you for me.
>:3 says (2:40 AM):
T^T
>:3 says (2:40 AM):
I feel like that might be something I would have done if I were in your situation.
Ariana says (2:40 AM):
What're you referring to..? xD;
>:3 says (2:41 AM):
They Oh okay..
Ariana says (2:41 AM):
Because remember, GOOGLE'S MAH BUDDY. ]:
>:3 says (2:41 AM):
*The.
>:3 says (2:41 AM):
oh right ...
Ariana says (2:41 AM):
I was able to figure stuff out because I'm a stalker. I'M DANGEROUS. 8D
>:3 says (2:42 AM):
razz
Ariana says (2:42 AM):
But like... things make sense once you try to piece them together like a puzzle, so from the very little information I got, I was sorta able to understand the situation, although I would've felt much better had I asked you from the start, but no, I asked you later and felt bad about asking you after all. ;_;
Ariana says (2:43 AM):
See, I really don't make any sense. :c
Ariana says (2:45 AM):
Although I know why I hadn't just directly asked you.
Ariana says (2:47 AM):
I'm pretty sure it was because I thought you'd be happier if I didn't interfere with your life, and I'd just wait for you to tell me if you'd rather be with Ellie, rather than asking you and having you get rid of me right then because I had asked before you told me, so I guess I was scared to ask you? I'm stupid. xD
>:3 says (2:48 AM):
You were scared..
>:3 says (2:48 AM):
I love you so much Ariana
>:3 says (2:48 AM):
I always wanted to say sorry for not letting you see all that I am.
>:3 says (2:48 AM):
Because I wanted to let you into my life so bad.
>:3 says (2:49 AM):
You were and are still my god in ways.
Ariana says (2:50 AM):
;__; But I probably really irritated Lelly because I'd always whine to her and ask her what to do.
>:3 says (2:50 AM):
She likes to help you Ariana :]
Ariana says (2:50 AM):
I know. ;_;
>:3 says (2:50 AM):
Remember Lelly and the Pangya story?
>:3 says (2:50 AM):
And it relates to Louis?
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
Uhh.. what where
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
Which pangya story? D:
>:3 says (2:51 AM):
The one where Lelly prejudged me...
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
Yes.
>:3 says (2:51 AM):
she didn't like me at the time I think.
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
I thought that's what you were referring to. x_x
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
Yes..
>:3 says (2:51 AM):
I kind of stole your attention I think.
Ariana says (2:51 AM):
D:
Ariana says (2:52 AM):
I guess that's what happened..
Ariana says (2:52 AM):
Because she got so angry every time I mentioned you.
>:3 says (2:52 AM):
Lelly's a great person.
Ariana says (2:52 AM):
She issss. ;___;
>:3 says (2:52 AM):
Now that I'm on her good side.
Ariana says (2:52 AM):
Yeah..
Ariana says (2:53 AM):
.... we once fought over my runescape password. Lawllll.
Ariana says (2:53 AM):
That was like.. two years ago. Zomg.
Ariana says (2:53 AM):
.. what's that got to do with anything ;_;
>:3 says (2:53 AM):
Lool.
>:3 says (2:53 AM):
Would it be okay with you if I put this in a Gaia Journal?
Ariana says (2:54 AM):
Put what..? o.o
Ariana says (2:54 AM):
If it's the runescape password thing, I have a .png of the fight. It's so lol.
>:3 says (2:54 AM):
12:39 to now.
>:3 says (2:54 AM):
lool.
Ariana says (2:55 AM):
.. wouldn't that be like digging your own grave? D8
>:3 says (2:55 AM):
How so?
>:3 says (2:55 AM):
Why try to keep it in?
>:3 says (2:55 AM):
It happened.
Ariana says (2:55 AM):
True.
Ariana says (2:55 AM):
... DO I THINK TOO MUCH LIKE SAE?
Ariana says (2:55 AM):
I'M IN DESPAIR.
>:3 says (2:56 AM):
Sure, there's probably some things people don't want in there about them, but it's my life and my journal :]
>:3 says (2:56 AM):
I could remove by request :]
>:3 says (2:56 AM):
BUT THEN THEY'D BE COVERING THE TRUTH.
>:3 says (2:56 AM):
And they wouldn't want to lie.
>:3 says (2:56 AM):
I dunno, I should be getting to bed soon, y'know?
Ariana says (2:57 AM):
... there was something I was about to say uhh what was it.
>:3 says (2:57 AM):
I have to put in the journal how we met xP
Ariana says (2:57 AM):
Who? o.o;
>:3 says (2:57 AM):
You and me razz
Ariana says (2:58 AM):
WELL. I was stalking you for a year and a half. :c
>:3 says (2:58 AM):
This time, I have some backup source if I make a mistake.
Ariana says (2:58 AM):
BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEFINITELY AN INTERESTING PERSON, RAITO
Ariana says (2:58 AM):
-shot for more stupid commentary-
>:3 says (2:59 AM):
Anyways... it was through this drawing board called Endless Oekaki.
>:3 says (3:00 AM):
wink
Ariana says (3:00 AM):
I wouldn't have met you if it weren't for Christina though. 8D
>:3 says (3:00 AM):
True!
Ariana says (3:00 AM):
Because she dared me to send you that weaboo love letter, and I dared her to get your MSN for me. 83
Ariana says (3:00 AM):
And I wouldn't have met Christina had I not met Lelly. 8D
>:3 says (3:00 AM):
Oh x]
Ariana says (3:01 AM):
It's funny, the first thing Lelly said to me was an insult. xD
>:3 says (3:01 AM):
TY dofus.
Ariana says (3:01 AM):
Sorta-- LOL YES.
Ariana says (3:01 AM):
Because Lelly decided to play Dofus and happened to meet Christina and Melinda. 8D
Ariana says (3:01 AM):
--.
Ariana says (3:02 AM):
Because when I first met Lelly, she said I was sitting on the swing backwards because I was sitting on the swing facing my house, while she was sitting on the swing facing her house, so I'm like "... o rly ;_;" xDD
Ariana says (3:03 AM):
And I didn't talk to her until I was being emo and lonely and just sitting on the swing, and her and Manuela were sitting on a bench in front of me, and they had animals made from those necklaces you get at new years, and then I said that I made pipe cleaner animals, so I went back home to get all the pipe cleaner animals I made..
Ariana says (3:03 AM):
.. and I wouldn't have started making pipe cleaner animals had Carina not made lame cat ears out of lime green pipe cleaners..
Ariana says (3:03 AM):
PERHAPS EVERYTHING -DOES- HAVE A REASON, ONCE YOU GO BACK IN TIME?
Ariana says (3:03 AM):
MAYBE IT'S TRUE, WHAT THEY SAY! 8D
Ariana says (3:04 AM):
.. but why I should I trust "what they say"--
Ariana says (3:04 AM):
ARIANA STOP QUESTIONING THINGS
Ariana says (3:04 AM):
FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME... THIS COMMENTARY ISN'T FUNNY.
>:3 says (3:04 AM):
xP
Ariana says (3:04 AM):
...... I'm a complete idiot when I talk to you. 8D
Ariana says (3:05 AM):
EVERYTHING I SAY IS SO STUPID.
Ariana says (3:05 AM):
.. actually
>:3 says (3:05 AM):
I love you Arianaaaaa!
Ariana says (3:05 AM):
everything I ever say is so stupid ;_;
Ariana says (3:05 AM):
I love you too Saunders. :3
>:3 says (3:05 AM):
It isn't though!
>:3 says (3:05 AM):
Everything you say has thought in it.
Ariana says (3:05 AM):
PROBABLY THE COOLEST THING I CAN RECALL THAT I'VE SAID WAS TO JAS. THAT'S RIGHT. JAS.
>:3 says (3:06 AM):
This is going in the journal too razz
Ariana says (3:06 AM):
THAT "I bet there's a lot of stress to handle, but if it means crying alone, come get me." LINE, AND I BET THAT WAS JUST TOTALLY STOLEN FROM SOMETHING SINCE I THINKING I HEARD IT SOMEWHERE BEFORE. xDD
Ariana says (3:06 AM):
......... well, now everyone will know for sure that I'm an idiot
Ariana says (3:06 AM):
GREAT DESPAIR!
Ariana says (3:07 AM):
-dies-
>:3 says (3:07 AM):
...
>:3 says (3:07 AM):
I fell half asleep...
Ariana says (3:07 AM):
DDD: You need sleep.
>:3 says (3:07 AM):
I dreamed... and there was this girl... who said in a weeping voice "I'll throw away the hope" and she screamed in sorrow in my voice "Nooooooooho"
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
It was scary.
Ariana says (3:08 AM):
o______o
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
i ena
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
*Not in my voice...
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
in my face
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
xP
Ariana says (3:08 AM):
Ahh. xD
>:3 says (3:08 AM):
Ah well....
>:3 says (3:09 AM):
I think I should be heading in.
>:3 says (3:09 AM):
Maybe we'll create another IM journal entry tomorrow xP
Ariana says (3:09 AM):
Alright 8D
Ariana says (3:09 AM):
'Nighty 'night, Saunders~
>:3 says (3:10 AM):
Goodnight Sweetie <3
Ariana says (3:10 AM):
Sweet dreams! I love you. <3
>:3 says (3:10 AM):
I love you too... and I promise I always will.
Ariana says (3:10 AM):
-hugs- x3
>:3 says (3:10 AM):
Oh the irony.
>:3 says (3:11 AM):
-hugs-
>:3 says (3:11 AM):
You sleep well, and I'll try to talk to you when I get home tomorrow. No band practice on Wednesdays :]
Ariana says (3:11 AM):
Okay! 8DDD
>:3 says (3:12 AM):
Goodnight Ariana. [sleeping]
Ariana says (3:12 AM):
'Night. :3
