i feel ile theres no place left for me. its not just a feeling its a fact. there realt is nowhere left for me to turn. its not the fact of no where left its that there never was a place for me.
every one i know seems to be drifting away form me. why?
all my life i've truly been alone on the inside allways crying out for some one to save me but never an ancer to my crys.
i cant look at anything any more with out being blinded, even by the darkness. every thing has turned its back on me and i feel that sone so will every one.
i always seem to be left alone allways abondoned by every thing. the only thing that never seems to leave me is pain. why?
i've become so scared of everything. i want contact but i've been hurt to much that i fear it. everywhere i go the pain stokes me
i can go 5 steps with out seeing a happy cuple or some sone fulrting. every time i do i get scared and run. i can help it! its just been so hard on me that if i continu to let it hurt me so i'll die from the pain.
whats worce is that love has come up to me and try to brake me down ferther. thats the worced. its so hard. someone say they like me but i've hured that so much and every time i end up in a amout of pain equal to death. i want compashon so badly but its bothing but pain for me/1 this is why i heel so out of place.
even when i'm ouy in plublet i allways feel out of place and i feel that every one around me things that way to. its even happined when some one asked me if i feel like i'm out of place. at woek when i was waiting to be piced up one of the gurs i work with asked me if i felt out of place.
i allways did but i never though it would be that notsible.
my mind is circleing itself and looking for a path to falow but never finds anything. will i ever be free of pain? why must endure like this...?
my love- gone
my happyness- desirted
my feelings of sens- torn appart and shreded into pices
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