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.....man....just kill me now...i fell bad....after ready last jounal comment...i ignored and got mad slient puppet and her mom...yes.....what i said was what i felt at the time...but after i posted a comment to them...i when and put them on ingore list and blocked them on aim and yahoo...then i when to bed.....but i couldnt sleep cause i was crying.....i was thinking if form there ever thing when to the bad side...i would fail my GED, my gf would brake up with me, i would never beable to get a job..cause i never passes school or got a GED...then i would end up killing my self....i still feel like i dont belong..i still wont after i type up this entry.....the thing is u two are calling me childish......and i get mad at it cause its true.....im very childish at heart.....cuase...i missed out my chilenhood when i was young...moving form base to base cause dad in navy..never made friends cause i know i would move next year....so all i did was just sit and do nothing...even at home...i wanst very active....what is happening now..is that do to i got more friends and everthing..im leting the childness out inside of me....when i beg for items...it only a joke...im just messing around with u..cause that is how i am....and same with that first entry that started it..it was only for laughts..but u are the one that took it to offence..that meany entry was just for laughs crystal.......u dont seem to laught very much...also..when i want an item..i act that way just cause....not to make u give me item..that is how i act till i find a way to get the item myself....ist just envy really..so plz forgive me crystal...........and crystal's mom....im sry about the whole coming to see us thing..its just that u really didnt give us a whole plan to come and see us facter...and if u just would have waited till we said we are ready for u..not just go when u are ready..it would have been better and we could have really hung out more...sry about that






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The Silent Puppet
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commentCommented on: Tue Jun 14, 2005 @ 09:14am
I do laugh...I can't laugh around you...I used to...Remember? Before...When we talk...Practically all the time? Remember...I was able to call then...We used to sit on yahoo with our cameras running. Then my mom and your dad talked a bit....Before we came we kept talking "Yeah that be so cool to meet!"
I told you I had to go to a family reunion...We got back, I got online, was able to call you, then my mom and your dad talked while I believe it was Nick on the phone. You both seemed excited, your dad said it was alright if we came, not to mention while we were on our way you had an additional 3 days...I don't fully blame you for what happened...And I say "fully" for a reason. Yes your dad was the one who was all "Oh well they need to eat so go get settled in first blah blah blah then you can hang out blah blah blah..." The reason part of it is yours is because you didn't even make an effort to hang out...That's the part that irratates me.
About the first entry...I saw that it was a joke. First part I was being pissed then I decided to mimic you and be whinny. My second comment on that post was for laughs and again still poking at being a lil whinny. Look, let's drop the Oregon trip...I honestly think you don't ever want to meet me anyways so what ever. I'm more into trying to get to Arizona anyways...But that's because people I've talked to for 3-5yrs are there. I understand that you're being childish but I don't think that's nessessarly a reason to be mean on here and nice on AIM....You irratated me, what do you expect? I'm sorry I came off harsh.
I accept your appologies, just next time try and talk to me about them...Not the Gaia comminity.


commentCommented on: Tue Jun 14, 2005 @ 04:25pm
id like to say your much like me I maybe an adult but at heart im just a kid and thats because of how life has been for me I myself had no friends in school much less home time all my time at home was spent hearing my parent fight then trying to drown them out anyways I know how you feel from that point of view but I think youve got one thing twoards you and thats your stronger than me im sure of that and youll end up just fine and happy meanwhile im still falling in the vast abyss hopeing to grab onto something but seeing the walls slick and nothing to grab onto who knows maybe life will twist on me I pray it does then id be happy heh ......... no further comment



Nina Shadow
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Angel of Ruby
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commentCommented on: Tue Jun 14, 2005 @ 07:30pm
It's okay to be childish everyone is a child at heart but just don't act like it much when they grow up. ^^ Just have faith in what you do! Know that everyone luvs ya! -ish at school- ninja


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