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Stupid-no-Jutsu : The art of being stupid.
Finally released in a totally unabridged format.


They tell you to speak up...

But when you do, they yell at you.


When you keep to yourself...

They tell you to speak up more. But then you're self-centered.


No matter what I try to do...

The result is always the same. Even if I don't want to start anything.


They say I haven't changed...

8 months ago I cut myself because I was bored. Now I'm happier.


I try, but it doesn't seem like its enough...

To get the "approval" I need to feel like I've been accepted.


Always getting yelled at...

Even when I don't want to get someone angry.


No matter how hard I try to keep things stable...

Things fall apart and I'm left holding the bag.

I never said I was a victim...

I'm only assumed to be one for defending myself.


Because if I don't defend myself...

Who will? If someone does, I certainly don't tell them to.


If someone else were to say the same exact things I do...

They wouldn't be yelled at.


So why me...?

Am I special, because it doesn't feel that way.


I don't deserve this...

Though part of me believe I deserve much worse.


I want to hate you...

But I just can't do it.


I cry because of your words...

But it doesn't matter because I deserve this.


I want to be a friend...

But you push us all away.


No matter what happens, even if I "changed"...

Its a never-ending cycle and everything will happen again.






Funny how this is directed at everyone, but no one at the same time. A free write with the alter egos inside my head. The good and bad so to speak. Going over everything from friends, family, acceptance, etc. I want to do good, but I won't lay down and make someone feel like they are right. Not anymore.






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Jaganshi_Forever
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commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 05:06pm
Hey, that's really deep, and true. i looked at the pictures you took. they're really good. they could make awsome backgrounds. you definately have a gift for photography.


commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 05:53pm
*bows* Thank you.



ShaIIow
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mankvill
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commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 06:26pm
Woo for stream of consciousness writing.

<33333333333333333333333333333333


commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 06:45pm
How does it feel to have the most posts ever? lol



Lunablade
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ShaIIow
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commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 11:46pm
No different than anyone else...


commentCommented on: Fri Jun 24, 2005 @ 11:58pm
Wow, that seems... revelating? Nice. .... ninja



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