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Love and Hate
These tears full of love
Drip from my beaten eyes
And run down my crooked nose
And I know now that I miss you
I love you for who you are...
I hate you for leaving me
But that was my choice, not yours
Your caring touch departs my body
And I am cold and gloomy
As I see you walking away
And I know now that I want you
And fall swiftly to my knees
But the ache is growing
And I can’t get up from the floor
And I know now that I need you
Trapped by pain inside
Pinned to the ground by devotion
I love you...
I hate you...
For what you have done to me
For what you are doing to me
But is it you, who has murdered me?
Is it you, who hid your feelings?
No, ‘twas I who concealed myself
‘twas I who pretended to not love
And now I blame you
You, yes, you *****
For you did nothing wrong
‘twas I who ruined my life
But I killed myself for you
So, I love you forever more...
I hate you from this day forth
For tonight, I breathe my last breath
Tonight, you leave me for dead
I scream your name into the silence
But your footsteps continue away
I although I want to live
Only you can save my soul now
But I love you...
I hate you...
For I’m dying because of you
And still...
This is what I wanted
This is the path I desired
To love you, for you loved me
But nevermore.....
For you care for another
And care not for me
And I knew slowly,
That this day would come
And so, my final words
Are not those that one would expect
For they come from the heart
And not the human mind
As tragic as it is
I still love you...
I still hate you...
And you’ve killed my soul
My dreams, my heart
And so I die tonight
I take a breath and sigh...
“ Thank you....”