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Agh. I probably shouldn't be posting this at all. And when I say "At all" I mean it. But...I still love him. I won't name names...but I really really miss him. It's funny. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. I don't know why...but I have, and I know I shouldn't be. When I tried to just stop talking to him altogether, I was miserable, suicidal. Now I'm talking to him again and I'm happier. But he's over me. I hurt him so badly, and I know there is no way he would ever forgive me, and I still can't forgive myself. I won't ask him to take me back...God, I'm a ******** idiot. But I still love him. I'm so sorry for being such a blink idiot. That's what I'm paying for now, I suppose. Well, there's not much else to say. I guess as long as I can talk to him, I'm fine. I'll be happy with just that.