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Can't be trusted
always Deceiving people
Especially her love ones
tries to put the past behind her,
but just can't
always having flashbacks.
can't stop the pain inside.
doesn't know where she is
surrounded by the darkness.
wants to see the light and you again.
giving up only makes things worst.
the pain and suffering you must go through
is not really her wish.
want's someone to hear all her problems
but she can't tell anyone she just
pushes them more away as usual.
Her heart want's to be healed once again,
but it can't not now not ever.
she doesn't want to go through all that pain again
as if someone was stabbed her in the heart, not
eating for days just the sight and smell of food made
her want to throw up, blaming everything on herself.
she doesn't want to go through that again.
But she isn't going to give up though.
She can't control theses feelings that bears within her.
Doesn't deserve a second chance.
you never get a second chance to make a first
impression.
She's falling apart
doesn't know if she'll succeed in life.
but she can't. she can't think like this
she has to go and fulfil her dreams.
she has to remain calm, she can't lose control.
CAN anyone help her?
she stares at the razor
everyday tempted to do it once again.
But she can't.
She can't do it again.
She mustn't. She WONT do it.
She made a promise but she's afraid of breaking the promise
she had made. Afraid of deceiving them. She's broken many promises before.
But this time she doesn't want to screw it up.
She wants to be that happy youth she once was.
But she can't, she can't go on like this
she'll lose everything if she does.
She want's everything to be done with. Meaning she want's to start
a new life, but evertime she does something always goes wrong.