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This is the stories of the Demon named Jarett
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Odd feelings
Hey again, its me whee but I have something serious to talk about. It seems as though all I do is slip from about to be happy to being depressed and a little scared at times. I have no clue how I will shape my future and I believe that I have wasted my life already and there is little that I can do to change that due to finical issues. I wonder what my life will be in ten years, when I was seven I wanted some much to be a lawyer, then I wanted to own my own shop, then work on computers, now I want to own my own shop again; but it will be like a cosplay cafe. But thats besides my feelings, it seems as though no matter what I do I can not be happy and when ever I get close to someone something happens. After school I doubt I will see any of my friends, this makes me really really really depressed and it makes me want to break down and cry. I hate this, its my last year at school and it feels like s**t. When my sister comes home its hell, there is constant fighting and I can tell why I hated to live here and wanted so badly to move away I tried changed my identity and tried to move away. This still haunts me today, I hate myself for what I have done in the past. I have found out that my life isn't how I wanted it when i was younger, I though I'd be cooler and have gone on some awesome adventure. Not to mention I look and sound nothing like how I wanted to when I was younger. I am ok with my studys and all that, its not that hard I just never really had the drive to work on them. I also though I'd of had at least one girlfriend by now and well now I could really care less for most girls. My friends all hate each other and when I make a new one I find out that they are lying to me about them selfs and I hate it when people lie. I am not as smart as I think I am when it comes to proving it and I second guess myself. Now I am losing interest in everything I use to like. I want a bloody job around here so I can make some money. But I sleep most of the time and I am too lazy to even work at my house on the chores and stuff. I feel as though my depression is sinking in and all I want to do is be happy. Like I said it seems as though I can not be happy in this life and no matter how hard I try I can not make my friends happy either so I fail in that department, also all but my mom and grandpa hate me (which isn't too bad I suppose they all could hate me). To top it all off when I try to get close to a friend they back off, or something happens to make me back off, mainly my laziness. But it seems as though all I want to do is read stuff of my computer instead of real books. Well thats bout it for now, also I don't want no bullshit comments or replies if you don't like it just stop reading it damn it!

with love,

Jarett the Kira wink






User Comments: [2]
Amaya_Dreamer08
Community Member





Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 05:00pm


yeah, yeah...i'm late with reading this. that's just how i am. i don't see why no one has left a comment here yet. so i'll be the first one. uh...let's see. okay! i'm not going to do the whole sympathy thing and i'm just gonna tell ya what i think of all this. you, Jarett, are an awesome person. (in my opinion) i'm glad to have met someone like you. it's sad that i can't visit you on a random weekly basis but i still like chatting with you. i do get depressed and i guess i can sort of imagine what kind of life you're talking about but you're not the only one that feels like this. if anything you have a lot more courage (there's another word i wanna use but i can't think of it) than i think you realize. and if you think about it, you're life is like a drama manga. i realized that myself about my life a few months ago. sure you're not trying to free someone from a mafia or going to some other dimention to save a planet but you're going through your own trials and tribulations. know what? you kinda remind me of kyo from fruits basket as well as a bit of tohru. i'm more of a yuki myself. so i guess what i'm trying to say is don't give up so easily. there's always a little bit of light in the darkness. you just gotta keep looking for it.

well that was kinda cheesey but i'm here for ya dude! so don't get too depressed and try to hang in there, okay? remember, you still gotta come to my wedding in the future xp no excuses! 'cause i'm sending plane tickets with the invitation. love ya man. (strictly platonic)

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Fingernails
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Mon Feb 18, 2008 @ 08:03am


cry heart


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