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Ryuu Nikki
From my life to my dog's life to rantings.
I think I'm going insane
Recently I've been thinking about him a lot... Oh "him" would be refering to my boyfriend of course... Honestly he could do better. I mean, why would a person want to be with a person such as myself? He's so caring, though he tries not to act like he is. I don't have a problem with that though, he has a reason to... Whenever I'm with him, I can't help but wonder if there could be someone else for him, but then I feel upset because, to me, it feels like I'm not trusting him... But then I feel as if I need to be with him all the time to show that I care for him...... Then I feel as if I'm just being needy and that I'm just going to end up annoying him. I probably don't notice it when I do but he always points out that, at this point, I look really depressed. Since I'm naturally depressed, he always tries to help me not feel that way... I think he gets fed up with it when he goes home. I don't blame him for being upset with me. I can't help but feel as if I need to be away from him so he can have his space, but I can't stand to do that because when I'm not with him, I'm worrying about him. Is it because I'm just obbessed? Or is it 'cause I'm insane??? I wanted to spend Christmas with him, of course, but that could never happen... I want to say, "I'm fine. It's ok," but the thing is, I'm not. Anyone else think that there's something seriously wrong with me and that I'm being selfish (as always)?? Or am I just ranting???






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Silver_Okami_bara
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commentCommented on: Mon Dec 24, 2007 @ 05:18am
well ryuu yeah he may get annoyed but you know he won't show it for you.........you want to know why..........it because he loves you too much


commentCommented on: Tue Dec 25, 2007 @ 05:41am
So you DO have a boyfriend... soooooo who is it? ninja



cowboy bleach-bop 23
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Zanener
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commentCommented on: Wed Dec 26, 2007 @ 03:17pm
even tho i haven't talk to u since the summer after the 4th grade.... i say both. (if i afended u with this comment, i'm sorry)


commentCommented on: Wed Jan 16, 2008 @ 02:37am
I understand the feeling ENTIRELY. I forget how old you said you were, but I think you're my age if I remember correctly. We get like that sometimes. I'm going through the same thing, except with God, which is more than a boyfriend. He's perfect, and I'm not. I fail him, so I don't want to be with him because I'm so...unperfect. Anyway, I wont go preachy on you(ick), but I think you get the point. You're never alone.


love always,
Your one and only Riss.

rissalittleangel
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