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My sister got is watching One Tree Hill in front of me. It has a sad episode on it. I felt bad for one the guys.

A lot of things have been happening around me. I can't explain them. The feelings of others follow around me. I feel the regret of other as much of my own. I hate it. Regret and Guilt is the strongest killer. I believe that. This country is full of it. And it lives for tradgey.

My friend of mine told me once that I was a cold hearted person plus a closed hearted one. I think they're right half the time. I am a closed, cold hearted person. I know that. I'm glad someone finally told me the truth. I was like that and from time to time i still am. I am not as cold hatred, sapress that. But..i'm still closed. I known if i open, it will hurt others. I don't like seeing the people around me hurt because of me. It will only make it worse. Its painful to see othe cry while i stand there, not shedding a tear. I dont cry...well not it front of others. I have to be strong for some and for others, i show that i'm not the same person that they love it pick on. This is the result of their cruelty. A closed, cold hearted demon.