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its amazing when you find your very own bff. and even more when that same person is your bf too^^ every day i find more ways we're alike, its like destiny or something. we even have the same birthday o__o but he's older by 2 hours exactly.

he makes me feel perfect, any other guy i can be with or have been with i feel i need to impress them all the time. i feel perfectly comfortable around my guy heart , all the little things that bother even me about my appearance or personality dont exist around him. they just vanish. its wonderful to feel someone appreciate you EXACTLY the way you are, all the time. with others, you can come close, but the little things that dont fit can tear you apart. when the little things vanish, that's when you realize you've hit the jackpot =D heart

i am probably the luckiest person on planet earth =D i have a wonderful life, with awesome parents who really care, dont fight or argue, and we're pretty well off money-wise with an awesome house on "snob hill" instead of the average trailer. i have managed to slip through the crushing force of peer pressure, im still me, unlike most clones in our poor little school. though i do go through tough times with those clones maybe talking about me, or teasing me to my face, my only conclusion is they're jealous. im am wonderfully talented (or so ive been told) musically and artfully-wise, im smart and (so ive been told) beautiful, im kind to people (and a b***h to those who are a b***h to me), and have wonderful self-esteem (most of the time =D). i have finally found my dream guy, and im only 14 years old. he's not perfect, but neither am i, and he's perfect for me. i actually have been teased about him before, but again, they're jealous. all they have is their little clone jocks who run on hormones and daily ruitine. as far as i figure, they prolly make fun of him as much they do me, another way we're alike. i have wonderful friends, who are not just superficial. they are like me, but they're themselves. they understand like i do the importance of being themselves even through the pressure our 'peers' bring.

i honestly do not know how they could really be our peers, their immaturity degrades them to about age 7 or so. ive been told im a 27-year-old in a 14-year-old's body quite a bit. i do not really know why im so different, but as a small child i was terribly cut off from any social life. even now i am glad it was like this, i wouldn't be who i am if it weren't so.

i love everyone who has affected my life, big or small, positive or negative. i really do. i love being me. i love being me in front of others, who aren't me. i love it.

and i love my adorable plushy boyfriend heart you can count on that 3nodding