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Ugh. I'm so stupid. crying

For the past year, I've been bouncing from one guy to another. I now have 3 men thinking that I want them and only them. 1 lives in Chicago; we've known each other for 2 years cause we met in college. He was a friend. Still is but I still don't see us working out. He's proposed. sweatdrop

Number 2 is from my town. We went to high school together. At the time, he was with someone else and I wasn't into guys. No I'm NOT A LESBIAN! I just saw guys as useless bags of meat only good for opening pickle jars. Now he's in the Army and considers me his cause of a 2 day sex-athon that we had befor he went back overseas. We still talk. He's also proposed. xp

Number 3 I met while doing the Disney College Program (it bites a**, so if you really just want the experience, do it. Be warned. It's semi-free slave labor). We hit it off extremely well and we enjoy each other's company alot. He has also proposed, however, he's from New York and I'm NOT going anywhere where the snow is higher than the top my a**. I'm 5'1". No thanks. eek

I've told all 3 that I love them and only them. Am I so wrong for leading them on when I don't know squat about myself? Should I stop with all the BS and tell them each about what's going on? OR should I just let it all cathc up to me and bite me in the a**, forcing me to pick.