MOOD: stressed
Okay, so I guess high school just wants to ******** me over? lol Or maybe it is just junior year wants to have a wack at me or something.
Besides those boy problems, there are some crack whores at school starting s**t with my best friend and other friend. What the hell is that crap? God. Is drama all these ******** 'round here KNOW!?!?! Fight after fight, and mostly between girls. Trashy, much? Especially when it is for no reason...
ANYWAY. So, weird a** number one stopped talkin' to me for NOW. I ignored him. =D And the second dude I just ignored altogether and even avoid calls from his friend. Stupid. all of it. They have no chance dammit! D< As for the one I like, well he knows. I guess I really did ******** up, cause I confused the hell out of him. I feel super bad. stare It really sucks, cause I do really like him, ya know? I just feel STUPID AS ********!!! I dunno what came over me. I mean, we were both too shy, but... Who am I kidding? We probably weren't ever going to change that. neutral It blows giant a**!!!! I am so annoyed by it all. I just dunno anymore, and I feel like I was a total b***h to him or something. I just didn't know what to do dammit. I feel horrible and all that. I can try and get over it, but whatever. I know I can't even if I tell him i so am. I LIE DANG IT! LIIIIIIIEEE! I still like him and I am so ******** stupid for lying to myself and him. Damn the past. Damn the present. Things better change. A lot of things!!!!
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