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I'm realy confused.
I keep wondering what would happen if i never was here? What if I never became friends with my bff? Would she be happier? Because she gota hang out with the people that dont really like me but are her buddies? I need some advice I dont know what is happening!!!! I think would it also be better to my sisters? The one that hates me? Because she would still have Courtney as a friend? Because Courtney liked me better? Will my older sister be happier? Because I always annoy her? Would life be betyer to everyone?! These are some of the very questions I ask. I wonder These all the time. And everytime I get the same answer in m y head is that everyone would be better without me or not? Maybe these are left unanswered maybe not. But i want to know is are they better off with me are my sisters beter off with their own computer? Not being annoyed have to death by me? Will Courtney be better hanging out with her friends Zac Ben and the other people in that group? Im just not sure so I just needed to say this so ya....