Wow! 2008, haven't updated since July. Kinda shows my commitment to my journal huh.
Basically I'm being selfish and writing down my thoughts and fears at the moment just to get them out of my head so don't read if you hate aganst razz
Last Christmas my aunt got diagnosed with Motor Neurones Disease and basically things aren't going great for her. She can't eat, can barely walk and had to send her horses away the other day which is the thing which she saved for her entire life. I feel so depressed but mum needs someone to talk to so I've gotta be stronger and keep a lid on the waterworks. I don't know how I'm going to live without her, life'll never bee the same, my family up north have always been so close because there's only a few of us and I don't know how we'll cope without her their to hold us all together...
The other day mum got a phone call to tell us that my Auntie Pat had died, not that we didn't know it was coming, she'd had her last rites said to her on several emergancy trips into hospital but she finally slipped into a coma and passed on. It's hard not to feel sad when she used to be so full of life and always ready to get up and go. All she could do by the end was smile and sleep.
Okay first bit of thinking done. When I feel a bit down I might add some more to this..
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my nana has this theory that people die because gods short of angels.
love you ruthy xxxx