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blood shot eyes.
dripping wounds.
what have i gotton myself into this time.
i close my eyes and i belive you.
but you, you fail again to be my hero.

tear stained face, sharp pain
blury vision, what have i done this time?
darkened metal dropping to the floor, blood not to late to follow.
what have i done?

darkness and sorrow fill my once joyful world.
but no, i don't get it.
looking in the mirror, i do't see the same girl everyone else does.
i need an escape...mine's not the greatest.
hurting and hurting, the pain won't stop.
the pain won't disappear and it leaves a permenant memory behind.
no one knows what causes it...no one.

everything used to come so easy...it was so perfect.
all my job was to please..yet i fail to do even that.
as the rest of me crashes down.
its raining thicker than water tonight cuz it covers my screams.
smiling i do and they don't see it's all an act.
no one does.
with all this pain and sorrow must come a good.
nothing possibly as painful can heppen.
when will that good come? I'm waiting God...