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These are from my past


HEAVEN SENT

Breathe in deep
Wash away your darkest dreams
Resting in your arms
It feels so calm
So comforting
Its the best feeling
In the entire world
My shining eyes
Peer into your heart
Your glimmering spheres
Eye my very soul
It sends chills down my spine
Everytime our fingers meet
I feel a piece of heaven
You fell from paradise
You're heaven sent
I dont want to wake up
And not have you by my side
Age Parts us
By hundreds
Hundreds of years
But when you lifted my face
Wiped my tears away
Let our lips touch
Held me close
To your beating heart
Age was broken
I knew right then
I just knew
My one wish
Upon that flying star
Was granted
You were heaven sent


UNLUCKY

I can never be happy
I will never own happiness
Because deep within my soul,
I know that being a four-leaf clover,
Doesn't always grant luck.
In my case,
Being lonely and unpleasant
Is the price to pay
For power....
Is that fair?
To sacrifice my happiness?
Just for something so destructive?
For something that kills?
For something that creates fate,
Rather than chooses their own?
Is that right?
Is it right to strip me of life?
Oh, Kou, do you know?
How could you know?
You were the one who took my life
Took my companionship
So how would you know of what I'm saying?
How would you know real pain?
No, not the pain caused from an experiment
No, that's not real pain.
Real pain is when you suffer from inside
Where you wish to die
But it's worthless

You're already dead
You die on the inside faster than outside


BROKEN WORLD

What we dont see
Is always right before our eyes
All the pain we feel
Is always shared
By the ones that are next to you
Even though most other beings
Dont know of the pain
That we do feel
Everyday of our lives
Its not as bad as we think
Its worse to have our
Freedom stolen from us
What others believe
Is no different than ours
If we are looked at differently
They are looked at the same way
We, as people
Have no more experiance in this world
Than the next person
But there are a few
That have felt this world
Heard its painful screams
Watched it die under our eyes
We let it pass
But everytime it does
We die with it
We turn the other cheek
To quiet our own pains
We look into that black box
Find and release the horrors
And watch them fly away
To infect the rest of the world
Torment washes over us
Like waves on the oceans rocky cliffs
It errodes us more and more
Everyday we have to deal with it
Along with the shattering forces
We take our words and put them here
Just because someone says
Words cant hurt us..
Its our words that do more damage
Than the physicalities the world can hold
After our pain floods the world
There is nothing left
Its just us..you and me
And our dark words..


STOLEN

I stole you away
Run from the world we all love
I dont want to be a burden
I dont want to be alone
Save me form myself
Cut away this screen that blinds me
And release the horrors that fill my soul
Hold me in your arms
Say your deepest words to me
In that moment of courage
Our lips touched for that first time
That one small instant
Left me paused
Come back
Break my seal of time
The stars keep me up all night
As tears fall from my eyes
If this is wrong..
Wrong to love you
Then I dont want to know
Know what is right
And I dont want to be..


BLOW A KISS

Watch the world fly by your eyes.
See the ones you love pass you on.
Ivisible to the naked eyes of millions.
Yet, clearly visible to the hearts of dozens.
Walk down the paths of the ones before you.
Gaze up to the stars in the darkend heavens.
Race the winds of the past and present.
Run to your future.
Don'd let the world around you be your border line.
There is so much more than that.
Feel the worlds every move.
Place your soft hands onto the breast of your heart.
Touch the rythym of your very soul.
The resting place of your dearest loves await your hands.
Thoughts blurred by mere love.
Images ripped by the worst of nightmares.
Fear that you will go too far.
For the ones you love most.
Blow them a kiss.
This will mean so much to them all.
Leave them with your heart.
But not with your soul.

Wake up now.
Its time for you to spread your wings.
Time for you to fly away.
Make your own future.
Never let anyone do it for you.
For its destined for you.
Only you.

So dont turn away now.
Listen to the stories of your gentle fall.
Please don't drink their poison.
Break free from them all.
Blow them a kiss.
Stand proud and tall.

Blow a kiss.
Let gravity take you away.
Say goodbye.
Cause you're here to stay.


GUIDE ME TO MY GRAVE

Take my hand and lead me away.
I never wished for you to leave me.
I would give anything to see you again.
Yet, that is not possible now.
I fell for you and no one was there to catch me.
That one fateful night I bonded with you mentally and physically.
Our defensless naked bodies, wrapped so closely together, just us.
I lost my mind when I lost you.
Now Im blind to this world around me.
Wishing if only.
If only it wasn't so.
Just this once.
I brought you to your knees.
Leave me here to wait.
Leave me here to bleed.
Leave me here to die.
All I wanted was to be by your side.
So guide me to my grave.
Everyone told me to be more sensible.
But I didnt want to hear it.
The world told me to look it over.
I didnt see what I wanted in result.
Dragging the sharp and steel blade across my arms.
Vermillion blood runs down my pale fingertips and drips slowly to the floor.
Running the silver metal across my chest and heart.
These tears I cry are the only thing I wear.
I whisper your name as I fall to the floor of this small space.
Where we spent our first and last moments of peace and happiness.
Yet, now the floor is my tomb.
My last resting place.
Where I can think of you always.
I close my eyes one last time..and exhale my last breath.

..shivering..I shake my head and blink the tears out of my eyes..
I turn to you and see your smiling face beside me as you kiss my tears away...
How I cant bear the thought of you dying..I dont want to believe these lies..


HAVE YOUR WAY WITH ME

Standing in the water, I rest against you in this warmth.
Steam blinding my vision to everything but you.
I can feel you breathing, your chest rising up and down as we breathe in unision.
Let me stand here so I can be next to you in this small space.
Bind me with your love and charm.
See how long I can handle myself before I lose all control.
I want you.
I need you.
I dont want to wait anymore.
I want to be yours.
I dont want to be stolen away.
So save me from myself.
Your lips, so soft and warm, against my own.
We're both shivering here in this corrodor.
Parting my lips, I can feel you swipe your tongue against mine.
My eyes roll to the back of my mind as I can only beg for more in return.
Tie me up and take me.
It's all I can do to not moan your name.
It's only your first time and not mine.
So I guide your arms around me in a small embrace.
Sighing in my head, I feel you begin to learn your own way.
Leaning my head back to rest on your shoulder, I can feel your hands on my skin.
Mewing softly, I put my hands onto yours and follow your movements to match mine.
So gently, you cup me in your palms.
Water spilling everywhere, keeping us warm.
I feel you press against me and I return the gesture.
Turning around, I kiss your neck just before I sink my fanged teeth into you.
I hear you moan and seethe in a choked breath as your entire body goes rigid beneath me..
I lean to venture further..
Our eyes covered with blindfolds.

..then I wake up..a feeling between my legs that I cant describe..
Breathing lightly..Im now depressed that you arent beside me..


Oh, one last thing.

This quote will remain in my mind and my dreams forever more and nothing will change it from being that way.

" .. I wish we could just digitalize ourselves into the computer data stream
and
just stay there for an eternity..just the two of us.. "








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h i d e m ii
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Sat Feb 09, 2008 @ 04:38am


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-Claps and wipes away tear-
Wonderful, Bravo, ENCORE!<3

XD, I really like them :3


xoXRistiaXox
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Wed Nov 05, 2008 @ 09:13pm


those were awsome i didnt want them to end!!!


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