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Like seriously I think I'm going to DIE of monotony.

Every day its the same. I go to work and do the same exact s**t. Its so lame. I am ready to kill someone. I cant seem to help but want to snap off the customers' heads. Its pretty guaranteed that every single day I will hear this:

Me: What can I get for you?
Customer: A million dollars would be nice biggrin

That happens, no fail, at least 10 times a day.

Customer: (they act like they are regulars there)Wow! You guys moved!

We moved Sept 30th. If you were a regular like you pretend to be then you would have noticed already!

Customer: Its cold outside O_O

No s**t. Its winter.

Customer: I love this music! Who sings it?
Me: I dont know...

I HATE HATE HATE the music that plays in my store. With a passion. Its like ******** elevator music. And I dont get WHY people would assume I know the music, do I look like I was alive when ******** dinosaurs roamed the earth? Because thats when this music was made </3 Hence why all the old people love it.

I'm just SO ******** OVER IT. I HATE hearing the same old s**t day in and day out. Nothing new is ever said. Its the same ******** small talk non ******** stop. It makes me want to ******** kill myself. At least at Payless there was entertainment and customers were creative in their ways to piss me off. Now all customers are nice but SO ******** BORING. I would rather have the ******** rude people and then be able to appreciate it when someone nice comes along, then have to listen to nice people and be bored to ******** death. And its not fair that I should want to murder my customers when really they do no wrong.

I have been in the WORST mood EVER lately. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE this job. GOD. I cant even do fun stuff on my days of because I only get one day off a week! And how much can you do in one day? Which is such ******** BULLSHIT >.< We hired someone new right? A full timer. So now I get around 10 less hours each week. So you would think with an extra 10 hours I would get an extra day off BUT I DONT. W.T.F.

I'm all worried about the road trip this summer too. I dont know how I'll get money for it. Because the stupid ******** bullshit hyundai people suck ******** c**k I owe my mom ******** $1200. That is a lot of ******** money >.< ******** "You have full warranty on your car for 60,000 miles" ******** bullshit. A CLUTCH IS PART OF THE ******** CAR. How the ******** can it NOT be ******** covered with a ******** full ******** warranty? I should ******** shoot those ******** people in the ******** head, ******** douchebags. I already give my mom $125 a week out of my $300 paychecks. If I give her an extra $100 a week it will take me 10 more weeks to finish paying her off. The road trip is 13 paychecks away. Maybe 14 is we decide to make it shorter and just forget the east coast. Which I would be fine with. I can drive down it any time, at the end of the summer I'll have plenty of time between jobs to take a trip. But anyways, even if we leave later I'll still only have like 4 weeks to save money. And I'll still need gas money and money to pay my mom and by then there will probably be another full timer, so I'll have even less hours. So lets say I manage to save $150 for 3 weeks - that would be $450. Then the paycheck before I go I'll get to keep all of it, except $75 for my car payments, so that would be around $700. Then if I get the economy check before I go I'll have around $1000 and then I'll get another paycheck on the road so altogether it would be around $1300. And I'll need money for hotels most nights, food, gas, and then spending money to do stuff. So I dont know if it will be enough. I wish I could take it at the end of the summer when I'll have my big fat camp paycheck to add to everything, plus an extra month at Buttheads to save money, but if I do that I'll be doing it alone and no way am I going to drive cross country by myself >.< Maybe I should just make it a year long goal? I could do the north in the beginning of summer, the east at the end of summer, then California...in winter? That wouldnt be nearly as fun though D: And getting time off work...thats the problem with all this. Maybe I could fly out to CA for "a wedding" randomly in the middle of the year ;D Gthb and Druki are totally secretly engaged, right?

And I guess even though one big a** roadtrip would be AWESOME...after a month it would be over and what would I have to look forward to then? If I split it up though it will be fun year round. And much less stressful.

I could try to go to CA during Christmas break. That should give me enough time to save up for plane tickets and hotels, right? Or maybe it would be better at just some random time so that airfare will be cheaper, I dunno.

Aye anyways I need to get ready for work now. Its only 122 days until I leave for camp. I just have to keep thinking that. And its even less until I leave work. Its like 110ish days until I get to have fun with my life. Not that I dont have fun now, I have toooons of fun after work. I might do the same exact things everyday after work but somehow they still manage to be fun <3 So I guess I should focus on that. Mmyeah I'll try.

xoxo <3