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HERE


For years I have lived a life that most would envy for what it is on the outside
If they could see it form the inside, their opinions may differ

I have gotten attention that many crave
Achieved great things with ease but have been hated for it
I have been smothered with love that I could barely return
And have given criticism to those in need of friendship before lesson

I contained not the heart of the young and infatuated
Just the mind of a person in pursuit of survival in a world of disaster for the ill-prepared
My instincts triumphed over my heart’s desires
Shadowing the love that could have been given when it was most needed

When I look in the mirror I see a person of passion
One who is capable of extending the strings that tie her heart together
But when I step away from that reflection, I return to a state
Thinking that what lies in such an image
Cannot exist in this life that I have created with a heart of stone.

But the visions in that mirror follow me
In my heart… in my mind
They are inescapable, for no matter what the world inhabits and shows outside
Inside is where I keep my greatest desires

Inside is where I let my self go and let my soul take flight from a prison of fear
I let it flow from my grasp as though it were but water
And as it falls so lightly to the dirt below
I wait for the faint tink to reach my ears
Reminding me that the past is gone but not forgotten and that it’s time to move on

It is here where my true self is able to leap from the cliff of torment
And land softly on the underlying waves of a dreamlike mist
It is here that I cannot be hated for what I can or cannot do
Instead, I am proud to be so blessed by my Lord

Here I do not wish that I could be less fortunate so that I may be accepted as one of “them”
Here I can be proud of myself and all that I stand for
Here I can unveil what I have hidden from the world all the long
I can reveal the heart I have guarded without the fear of being shot down
Simply because that one person does not approve

Here I have no further wants or needs but one
My only request lies in the eye of truth and destiny alike
May I understand and be understood, that’s all I ask