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There are days such as these when all I want is not to feel. All the anger, all the darkness, all the pain, all the paralyzing self doubt, all the voices of the people disappointed in me, I wish it would all go away. I'm tired of being deceived right from the start, I’m tired of being judged and condemned by those with demon eyes who have never taken the time to see past this smile and this laugh to the girl within. This knife piercing my heart, twisting and gouging ever deeper…. When will this agony steal away my breath? Can no one see through this sinister fissure in my heart? Why do you wear a smile as you tear me apart? I’ve finally realized, this was all just a lie.