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Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself. Henry Miller (1891 - 1980)
Rachel( 5 year old sister) and me ^_^
Well, it seems today was bad, but turned good once I got through all the bad stuff. I couldn't have done it alone, thats for sure. Again, I give my motivational prod a warm thanks, even if it was painful to follow through with..I got it all done! YEAH HA!! I feel so good. Everything good comes from listening to him...yet..I'm still me..I'm a better me...I'm the best I can be. My godness..I sound like I've joined some sort of army. eek Oh well, it's a dern spiffy one if ya ask me.
Anyways, I'll descirbe my day in detail. Woke up at 5:18..haha..8 minutes later than I was supposed to, and then hopped out of bed and got ready for school. I was really really lazy, so I stayed in my pj's eek and just put a sweater on top. I need to do laundry. gonk eek Ok, well, I got dropped off in seminary, sat in a cold chair and snoozed through the lesson but also paid attention and gave answers. My teacher noticed my blacknail polish once we where leaving, cuz he shakes our hand..haha..I think it scared him...it scares me too...it's black black. Ok, so I was off to school..nothin' special.
First Period was lame as heck..my special ed teacher gave me a load of phony-rich-guy-who see's me as another hassle rather than an individual who's trying to become someone she's never been. He never listens..he just opens that smelly mouth of his and blabs on about stuff he's already told me, and I already know..and still, I'll talk and he'll just give me that.." Well, just do what I tell you to do because you have to" look. Makes me wanna scream. Someday, us poor special ed kids will have a voice...If only I had known how to do work earlier.. stare so yeah, i argued with him about the crappyness of tutorials, and how useless they really are..but no, it's all about LOOKING good, instead of actually..doing..good. I hate images....look at me for who I really am, for once..and realize I'm not as stupid and ignorant as you assume I am. In the end, of course your plan is whats best for me..but realize, I wanna do it on my own now...and I can, and I will, if you see my new desires.
Quote: Passive acceptance of the teacher's wisdom is easy to most boys and girls. It involves no effort of independent thought, and seems rational because the teacher knows more than his pupils; it is moreover the way to win the favour of the teacher unless he is a very exceptional man. Yet the habit of passive acceptance is a disastrous one in later life. It causes man to seek and to accept a leader, and to accept as a leader whoever is established in that position. Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970)
Second period, English, we watched The Joy Luck Club movie, and I love the book, honestly. It's powerful, and a good read. biggrin
Third Period, was math, I didn't sit in class very long, cuz they pulled juniors and seniors out to do this math test. I totally bombed it. Good thing it doesn't go on my grade...if only Tyler coulda helped me..I bet he knows what the heck those symbols mean. xp
Fourth Period, we finished watching Little Buddha, and my teacher shook my hand. I'm so glad he has figured me out a bit..he's the first teacher who looks past the big bubble of my sisters outspoken-ness, and the brazen, intelligent charm of my brother. He knows I'm not exactly like them, but that I am just as good in my own way. I wonder what I am...in comparison to them....the quiet thinker, made spontaneously like the both of them once I'm inspired? Maybe....or maybe I'm just...boring. xd either way, he knows me.
Fifth Period was photography..I developed a few pictures, and they came out ok..like..2...haha..I gave all my mess up's to Rachel..they are ok too, but not as nice as I wanted.
Sixth was spanish immersion, I got totally lost...didn't have my book and I felt bad...that class..it's like a hill, at one point I was at the top, and then there was the drop, and I couldn't stop...now I'm at the bottom of a bigger one, and I don't even wanna look up at what's coming....my teacher is compassionate though..maybe too much....I see the look in his eyes when I'm not ready...I know he hopes I'll be ready...dangit..I'm gonna be ready this week..he is a good teacher. domokun
Seventh Period was biology, we went over the halobacteria lab stuff, and some chemistry in biology stuff..haha..Protons have it all<--now you know why I had that..haha..I slaved away at the lab, oh dang..I still have the other one I have to do.....wolf and sheep lab.... eek eek CRAP! I'll do it...er...tonight I guess. sweatdrop
Got home, and relaxed..my mom surprised me with BROWNIES. *drools* the best EVER. I was so happy. Hmm..then I stared at a certain someone while I skimmed over World Religions HW, and thenI got online and did my hw (not by choice of course) and talked to the best person in the world. The rest of my day was great, from then on..as always! I would sacrifice anything to be with him.....give away all my stuff, give all my money...go without food..candy..you name it....I need to pray more...I gotta find a way to do the things I need to do so I can be close to him. I say i'll sacrifice stuff, but dang..I really need to start doing it! Money in the bank, get plans on stuff..and I'll be happy and prepared for the great day...agh..the best day of my young life...
Haha..my brother's costume yesterday..he had a siamese twin..he drew a creepy face on his side, so when people asked himwhat his costume was, he's just pull his short up and she em' his undeveloped sibling. So funny..haha..I didn't have a camera to take a picture..I wish I had.
Good god, I just ate two brownies.... xp gonk I feel gross now..haha. sweatdrop
"Everything"-The Juliana Theory How are you feeling? What are your reasons? Do you feel love or a lack there of? Love is a bond without reason A cry for connection A light in your eyes Love is a reason for living, a reason for trying, a reason for life Forget the feeling Get all your of reasons Life is love or the lack there of Love is a bond without reason A cry for connection A light in your eyes Love is a reason for living, a reason for trying, a reason to cry Love is a bond without reason A cry for connection A light in your eye Love is a reason for living, a reason for dieing, Love is everything Love is everything Love is everything How are you feeling? Love is everything What are your reasons? Love is everything How are you feeling? Love is everything Love is everything Love is everything Love is everything Ohh love, you move me Ohh love, you move me Love, move in me, move me Love means everything Good night, I'm goin' candy huntin'. heart biggrin
TheTyro · Tue Nov 02, 2004 @ 05:29am · 0 Comments |
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