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I hate it.
I hate my life more
i can't stand it
I wish i knew why.............

Eveytime i see you
talking to me
making fun of me
or even cherring me up
why does it hurt

oh that right
cause i'm not suppose to feel anything for you
got how come i hear the song you we both like
why does it hurt

Many ppl may not now
The only resason i act like this stupid character in me is because
what i feel right now. STupid.

I hate it but............
it my own fault for deniing it
I don't really have a best friend if i did
she would help me in any way to make me feel better?
The only person that can actually see through my mask would have too be him.
He was the one who pat my back telling me are you ok?
He was the one that chase after me when i got blamed for making my cousin cry even though it was an accidente.
But still that doesn't change any thing.

I kinda hope that in this move to a new home
That it would help me get away from this feeling
I keep dreaming it
it repeating in my mind over and over like a broken video that keep revew it self to the beging and end till it stares over again

It stars witha dark room
The i see me my liitle self trying to make my dad proud
But then after i grow up a little the shy girl i use to be change she crying.
There i see my dad yelling the same word over and over"Your useless do something good in your life don't be like all the other kids ,you don't need friends, all you need is to work."
There after that i been losing my best friend in middle school i was announce as "the Lonler" it true many of my cousin tryied to get me to join then but inside my mind kept repeating the word my father use to say and still does.

My mom and my sister there the best things in life and the only reason i haven't become that broken doll. it's because they be giving me the strength to accomplesh,
But the move here been helping instead of me being the pain. my dad be nice to me, mom as always independent, and my sister perky as ever.

You could say in me the a lightv darkness, just waiting for an apportunity to over come me. I'm just scared that it might actually comsuse me but still,that dosen't mean.
I'm gonna let the word that my dad, cousin, or even anyone says cause now i'm not broken
Yes i may cry when i hear your song but that will only make me stronger i promise i just hope someone could help me before it will consume me i hope.... that's all i can do hope.