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im sorry. but when i look into the pasts all i see are mistakes i have made in fron of u. funny times,bad times,good times and BFF times. im not asking for anything. it takes time for a person to realize how much they love someone. i could never rip ur valentine card. and even if i did, i would cry even for some "silly" paper. well its not silly! its a memory to me!!! SO F THE PERSON WHO CALLS IT A SILLY PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im sorry alright?!?!?!?! i dont get a 3rd chance and i know i could have if i didnt make such a big deal out of everything!!! cry ........please i could never be happy again when i see the look on ur face when ur having so much fun with Jamie and Ana...and i realize and questoin myself why cant i be like them? and now i know. becuse im me, that makes me special ...but i dont believe it...im not special or unique!! im just going to take knife and kill myself!! i cant live without you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! knowing that i couldve been with u?! i love you...but u hate me... cry im sorry....