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i feel as tho my mind is fighting its self....like 1 part of my mind doesn't like the other side of it....one wants peace and the other wants blood spill....my body cannot provide for both of the needs because no matter which side i help....i will have regret or fail the other side.....my body is caught in between the to sides of my mind....death seem to be an option for them both tho.......if i kill the one i hate......i shall have peace again and shall also have blood spill.....but then.....i will also fail my body.....my body feel that i should not kill....but my mind is tempting me to...... no one should need to feel this way...... so i came up with a conclusion that also backfires at me......if i kill myself....i wont feel this way....but mind think otherwise.....why should i kill myself?......should i kill the one i hate so my mind wont feel this way?....should all the people who i hate die just because of that?......i sit witting this because i don't really know what to do with myself......but i feel no matter which way i take....it will not be good for anyone......
