Since I have nothing to talk about this entry is all poems. Hope u like 'em!^^
Heavens Know
Do you see the pain?
Or do you just see the mask in the rain?
Cant you tell this isn't really me?
If not I'll have to let you be
Why cant anyone see?
All I want is to find me
You told me you loved me
I payed a great fee
You really don't know me
It hurts to know you'll never see
As tears fall down on the wet ground
This is the fate I am bound
I have no choice in this
I will give you one last kiss
You don't seem to mind
Just know I'm one of a kind
As I watch you walk away
I want to scream cause I have something to say
As I stand here silently screaming
I look up and see the heavens beaming
That's where I must go
For me to truly show
(This is just how I've been feeling lately. Like no one understands me anymore even though they think they do....they don't...)
Story
The words stand out loud and bold
This is the story no one told
Though many try to forget
The candle will always stay lit
This is a story about friendship and betrayal
Though this story will always lead to an empty trail
You might wonder how I know so much
On me this story had a clutch
Though it's already over and cant' be redone
You should know this pain weighs a ton
I look the pages over one more time
But then I hear the bell chime
I stand up slowly bearing this pain
Why does it always have to rain?
Ever since you left this town forever
It will never be the same, no never
We used to be poor
But now hope has shut the door
As I walk on this stormy night
The light I once knew is know longer white
Everything has turned cold and black
You, that's what this town lacks
This story is coming to an end
I can only hope this town and my heart can mend
(This is for my friend who did suicide...I miss him alot...)
Watching Over Me
This world is so cold
Why do I have to keep on acting like I'm bold?
I was never the happy one
But what needed to be done was done
As I visit my past
I swear this visit will be the last
My house was small
I was beat like a doll
Slaps, punches, and pain
That's why I', no longer sain
I would hide under my bed
Silent tears of fear I would shed
Every night I would wake up to a sound
I wonder why this fate was bound
One night I went downstairs
I wish I hadn't cared
What I found haunts me every moment
Your body lay on the floor bloody and bent
I stood there shaking in fear
Your lifeless eyes were like a mirror
I ran out the door
Ran until I found the shore
I lay their in a ball
At that moment I felt so small
I stand over your grave
I know you'd want me to be brave
I lay down flowers with a note
I just wish you could read what I wrote:
You were strong and brave
But that wasn't enough for Dave
You took the beating after I was gone
But now it's through and done
I always wanted to say something to you
You always believed in what I did and do
Though I know you were supposed to tell me this
Those words I still miss
That man killed you I know
His heart is as cold as snow
I want to thank you for always being my mom
Being so killed you like a bomb
I wonder if you would do it all over
Though I'm not really sure
You would probably be sad if you could see
I wrote that your death was all because of me
Don't worry, you're my hero
And that will never hit zero
I wish you were still here
But I know you're watching over me like a mirror
(I dedicate this to my friend who had to live with an abusive father that eventually killed her mom. Don't worry though she's in a new home now, a safer one.^^)
 miroku fan 101 · Wed Mar 26, 2008 @ 04:58pm · 0 Comments |
