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Okay I am really down
I do not drive yet and I been promised a Job for 8 days and I get payed $200Dollars
Now come thats a Good amount to have on your wallet to do some fun stuff right?
Well Now I can not even use that Money anymore. My dad said he needed to barrow like $20 dollars is maybe 40 and I agreed he can have some and I should be paid back. so I 3nodding and said yes.
....
Well Being My mom is the only one who can put money in the bank, *sighs* The rest of it was dumped into the bank.
BIG problem on this
My Mom is a BIG spender( and My parents believe I am)
So Typical My mom will do her job ( pays a little,.. $500 Every time she is Needed to do surveys and THATS IT.... and she sits on her fat butt all day))
My dad got a New Job In Shilo Arizona that pays 48thousand a week which okay my dad is doin stuff.
As for me I am tryin to find a new job still after finially Moving.
But thats Not the full point I want to make. My Father, My brother and I work really hard weather it is in School or what ever job we have. and My mother? lays down on her fat butt everyday saying " I have TONS of work to do" when I come back to her office where she is " BUSY doing work" she is playing a game
Yeah you heard me a Game
SPIDER SOLITAIR
*sighs* if its not that she is laying on her bed playing gameboy
The game
TETRIS
She asks me to do things here and there around the house
I do them. My mom does nothing, But she says " Oh laura Please now I am not saying you should do ALL of the house work around here, I will do some" She means Yes I do all of it and she will make the mess, complain about it to me and make me do it. *sighs* stressed, stolen from, lied to.... yeah I guess this is a rant but while I have no job and car... this is about the best I can do with being in college, and thats stuck in my parents house , them takin me, I do chours, but then when I do, do chours, No one says anything and then about a day or two later they yell at me sayin" OH MY GOODNESS WHAT A MESS YOU DO NOTHING AROUND HERE LAURA!"
-__________-;;;;;;;*sighs* I dunno how I am relatied to these theiven, curel and mean people.
My Father Well yes.... i can see being related to him becuase he is like me and I am like him.
MY mother?... *sighs* I wish She was not mine.... she is a very mean and rude person all around.
I dunno why I am still here cept with my limits.... sometimes I just wish I was dead cuz I hate it here... and with out tellin me.. my parents bring up" OH WE HAVE TO MOVE NOW" no reason no askin me who lives with them on movin... no nothing... I dunno what to do anymoreI can bunck with someone but I need a place with my cats.
I have two cats whom Both I LOVE Dearly, I could NEVER part with them, and of coaurse I need my computer and internet becuase I do most of my homework on here for college. Just so much really and all I do wish is that I find somewhere I am not yelled at , some where I am understood, somewhere I do Not always have to explain my actions and what I say. I want to be equal, I want freedom like everyone eles does, heck my mom follows me around at the only pool we have here for no reason, as if she was watchin me only.
I dunno what ta do
someone help me

Edit:
After all I counted for the other jobs I have done in the past and been paid for my art work and such for the past two years of high school
My Mom owes me
$8,250.00Dollars