For my ability of thinking and the way I see the world through so much logic ,I find myself so Naive at times, because there are not many people who would understand the way I think there so hard to find, it irritates me...
I dislike myself sometimes for letting people step all over me For being what they call "nice" or "kind" I find these parts of me to be my weaknesses
I used to blame everyone around me for my trouble, I had a change of heart thanks to those people very few people in the world that follow or in other words understand what I Say, it's thanks to them I was actually able to see something new ,I give credit when credit is do: Thank you Bro heart Thank you Orbit heart
It's really depressing to know that your always there for someone, and they can't be there for you, they don't appreciate you I guess, but I use that term lightly for now.
In other words it's like the world is always revolving around them, I wish for once someone would have something interesting to say to me. That they wouldn't every time I say something to them just shrug it off and talk about themselves
I don't do that to anyone, why do they do it to me? sad
Sometimes I wish to scream out for help, but I feel in debited to those who helped me out so much, once again I will give credit, Where credit is due: Thank you Bro heart Thank you Orbit heart Thank you Lauren heart Thank you Frankie heart
But yet I feel the need to be there no matter what, to be able to help everyone I can, as much as I can. Even if it means my own suffering, even if it means my world will fall into pieces, I will be fine as long as I was able to help out those that I care most about, and those that I am close enough to.
I wish what most people would ever wish for to be listened to by someone, I want to be someone everyone will remember someday, not to be forgotten...
The most I can do is hope I'm not the last thing on everyone mind.
It's in my thought how people don't know what they have until it's gone. I'll always try to make sure to appreciate what I have in this world.
But, I wouldn't to be the punishment for someone who did know what they had until it disappeared, I would very much dislike to end up dead or hurt cause of something like that.
No I'd rather live on hoping they won't be so blind and understand more and more I find myself being hopeful that they might not ignore me anymore in a way there ignorant. but I always find myself waiting that's is why I am naive for being so hopeful so I'm only stuck in my own inner conflict.
Artistic Repertoire · Thu Apr 03, 2008 @ 05:28am · 0 Comments |