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... i feel like such a burdon all the time. whats up? i'm geting the feeling that no mater who i'm with i'm couseing truble for them, its not fair. i have no right to be like that. my life may be missrable but thats now reason to make it the same for others. i can feel my true self dieing more and more all the time, slowly turning me into an empty shell. i cant ever try any more with out couseing truble for some oneeles. i cant exsplan it. this deep feeling of sorow that dwells in my hard and constintly rises within my soul. maybe it comes from my trubles with love? aidians now full on with eve as his girfriend. in the RP i was going to make a guild where yardena was but then i though about it. thats not a good idea at all. i dont want to make more truble then i allredy am with out even trying. every time i try to love again some one gets hurt and even dies. in real life and on gaia. why should i try and love when i know its only going to end up with the other person being hurt and me cruushed? my moms allways telling me to look nice and all that stuff so i'll get a boyfriend but i can never get one so with avodeing hurting them i hurt my mom. every where i turn its nothing but pain. every mt beautiful dreams have turned cold and lonly. i cant stop crying wher ever i turn... theres never going to be any one to save me is there?

Posted by: Hope Loneheart Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 07:23am

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Commented on: Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 07:26am


	o.o;; All I can say here is I hope that all gets turned upside-down soon enough. sweatdrop

Commented on: Wed Aug 03, 2005 @ 03:04am

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Commented on: Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 10:48am


	stare STOP Hope these things you say are a passing thing It is true the you should take care of your self however there Is someone for everyone. by playing in to a low self esteeme state of mind you will force your self to miss that person. so STOP and start going about your days making your self feel happy about who your are.

Commented on: Sat Aug 06, 2005 @ 10:58pm


	Truly, You cannot impress anyone like that. You shouldn't worry if you are going to upset your mother with not having a boyfriend. If you aren't ready, you aren't ready. Your friends are always there for you if you need help through rough times like this. Everyone goes down this pathway of depression and boredom, so don't think you go through it alone. Hell, I feel like that I'm a burden ALL the time, but my friends truly show me that I am not because of the respect that they give me. If you do not feel that you are respected amongst your friends. Then they are going to be the ones that you end up losing and when you do, you won't feel bad because they were not worth it. I know, I've been through alot of it. Hey, If you need to talk to someone about this sometime, I'm willing to help out. Like that one day in Gym class, remember? Where you almost murdered Jonah? That was great, and the time when we saw Howl's Moving Castle? I know I don't seem like much of a friend somdays, but hey...no one's perfect. So give me A PM and we'll share the lovings.

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Commented on: Sun Aug 07, 2005 @ 07:16am

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