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I feel bad. emo

Kiri wants to go see Grease (even though she just saw it yesterday) with Jenna on Saturday, but she has to work. Well, we could switch shifts, which I don't wanna do because I'll get less hours.

But I don't want to take her shift in addition to mine. I HATE double shifts. It would obliterate my entire Saturday. And I plan on getting my AP Practice books after work so I can start working on them.

But now she's all sad that she can't see Grease with Jenna and her mom on Saturday. Her being upset about it and Jenna being all semi-mean about it didn't make me feel better.

I've been bringing up past problems in my head and bad past memories. I always do it and it sucks and then I blame myself for s**t I know that isn't my fault and the only one who can beat sense into my head is James, but whenever I talk to him I get so happy and forget about it until we have to stop talking because I need to go to bed/school/work, etc.

So yeah... emo

And James is gonna be busy today and tomorrow so I won't be able to talk to him. emo

EMO FACES!

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

Okay, that's enough emoness.

On the bright side, I get to hang out with Hope after work on Sunday. We're gonna go downtown and stuff. I think I'm gonna bring a little bit of money in case we go somewhere. I kind of need new shoes, clothes, and a bag.

...I still feel bad about Kiri. crying

That's it, I'm calling her later to apologize.

But I still really don't want to take her shift. More than likely, my parents are going to be out Saturday night so I wouldn't be able to go to work then anyway.

But Jenna's all irritated and Kiri's all sad about me not taking her shift. Jenna was all, "Fine, then if someone needs her shift covered, then we won't have to take it from her."

Why is this negativity always directed at me?! crying

emo (Last one.)

I told her the two of us can go see it again another day (I was actually going to go tonight because Jocey wanted me too, but I forgot to get a ticket) and that I'd pay for her ticket.

But I still feel guilty.

Why am I so easily guilt-tripped into things? gonk