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Worthless, Helpless, damaged and broken.....
I'm broken......I'm damaged.....I don't know what to do....
I'm helpless....I'm pathetic.....especially to you....
He makes me feel this way, when I lived in GA I was in and out of trouble once he and I got together. What was I to do? He said stay after school, and I did. I got in trouble and even got beat once. I move to chicago and try to behave myself, look I never get in trouble. I took the risks to see him when I shouldn't have, I got in trouble and lost their trust....grounded for a month...Why can't I seem to do what he wants? why can't I move down there? Why can't he move up here?
I'm worthless to him, I'm immature and don't make enough sacrifices. I must sacrifice free education from my parents to make him happy. I must sacrifice the parental discipline I feel I still need. I must sacrifice my family and take on the worries of living on your own.
But you know what? I'll continue to hurt myself every night until I can be with him.....and if that day never comes....Then my body will suffer till I eventually waste away. Before falling in love with him, life had no huge purpose to me...Yeah, go to school, get a job, get married, have kids and die. ********. But with him...he made it worth it. With out him, life can end for all I care. Maybe I'm just saying this, or maybe I'm serious.....one thing is for sure, I'm still worthless....
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