Why cant we just go back to the good ol' days?
I hate having responsiblitys. It seems now I can never do anything I want,and I can never spend time with people I love. Its always something,somewhere,and sometime that is preventing me from having any form of actual fun,or doing something I want to. And I can never seem to stop day dreaming. Its like my life is one big dream,but slowying forming into a nightmare. I dont understand why,but up until recently I have understood thing,or looked at them like I do now. I guess im becoming less foolish,and now I do have a care in the world,Mr. Not-so-Happy-Go-Lucky. I dont know if its my outlook on life,or if its like its self.Also ive been not being able to get any sleep recently. Falling asleep in front of the computer or Television at around 7:00 or 8:00 am. Ive always been imsomniatic,but not this much recently. I guess im just nocturnal. But It seems,im always thinking about a certain someone. A someone ive known for so long,and never really expressed how I feel to them truely. I havent been seeing them that much recently,and im wondering if that is what is causing all these changes. Were they the one holding me together,and not growing old? I think so. I feel im going to run myself into an early grave if I keep worrying. But I cant stop. Its like an addiction to smokeing,accept instead of a 3-day hump,its more of a lifetime hump.
I'm going to go watch paid programming. Maybe I'll but a new set of kitchenware,who knows.
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