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Ya know... I had a conversation last night with my brother and his girlfriend, and I realized: I was hated by a lot of people in the town I used to live in... I was just so naive that I could see the real picture.

1. I was known as that whiny little girl that cries ALL THE TIME and is heard constantly from down the street. A lot of my friend's parents practically hated me because I was annoying and very tempermental.

2. I didn't have very many REAL friends in school. I usually just played by myself except for my fourth grade year where I hung out with my friend Renee-- and a lot of her friends didn't like me either.

3. The elementary school pushed its students academically. I'm a writer now. But you would have never guessed by just looking at the report cards I got from that school. I had C's and D's and reading/writing was my worst subject.

4. I thought I liked it there only because I lived most of my life [so far] in that town. I guess I just couldn't see the real picture.


When I moved to the town I reside in now, my grades skyrocketed! In that other school, I would sit in the award assemblies while my eyes welled up because I never got an award. Never. I felt stupid-- like I wasn't good enough. cry

1. I got awards in my new school-- some I didn't even try hard to get and got anyway! That first award I got made me wanna burst out in tears of joy! blaugh my grades were the highest I ever had!! biggrin

2. The SECOND day of school, I met Maranda. The SECOND day!! Basically that year, I had an EXPLOSION of friends!! 4laugh

3. I met so many people here that made a HUGE difference in my life like my friends Kelli, Carrie, and Maranda-- believe it or not. She strengthened me so that I wouldn't be so sensative around others who hurt me. Umm, I think I'm still working on that though. Kelli brought me out of the dark so I wouldn't be so incredibly shy. Carrie did basically the same as Kelli and Maranda, except she did more on Kelli's part. Also, if I hadn't met her, I wouldn't have the fun of going horseback riding every week-- for free!

4. I'm MUCH more mature than I used to be. I am WAYY more considerate and only have fits when I'm really PISSED OFF domokun It still makes me wanna kick myself when I loose my temper...