My friend with cancer has stopped responding to treatments....the doctors say he only has 3 months or less to live...oh god...if I lose him, life will NEVER be the same. I'll be even more empty and alone inside. He's been with me through thick and thin and I don't want to lose him now. We were supposed to grow old together, he was supposed to come to my wedding, we were going to go through life together...but then he got cancer. That just made every moment I had with him even more precious...when I figured out he only had 3 months or less to live...I died inside...I just cried, cried, and cried some more. I'm going to miss him so much, he's a part of me so when he's gone a part of me will be missing forever. I love him so much. More then he'll ever know...I know he'll always be watching me and looking after me, and he'll be in my heart whenever I need him...but it wont be the same as seeing his smile, or feeling his warm touch...or even hearing his sweet voice. Every time i see him, talk to him, or embrace him, I know it might be the last...I don't want him to go, and I know he doesn't want to go either, but he knows it's going to happen one way or other. When he's gone I'm going to deny it for awhile most likely...But eventually I'll have to come back to reality and that's when the pain's really going to start. I'll wait until then though, right now he's still with me and I'm not going to let him go.
I dedicate this song to him
Hear You Me
 miroku fan 101 · Sun Apr 27, 2008 @ 02:35am · 0 Comments |
