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had an aaa shell blow up beside me .. or adleast feels dat wai .. just a s**t day .. not what .. did nothing in school .. friends all got ******** for leaving the school .. become a wanderer .. shellz fogot about me.. fogot dat we wer menta go out to get a pressie .. u kinda hope dat datd never happen from the person whoz menta be the one who loves u till the end of the world .. the aa fire started haling from that point on .. dodging shrapnell and kicks to the scrotem every 2 inches .. * just feel 1 sided... * not the first time as well .. *worries me* .. i love her to bitz but some times getting shot at like that reali brings me down... i guess when u know when u r final engine blows up on u ... itz time to go down.. just try and land dat 1 tonne hunk of burning metal as gracefully as gravety will permit .. but itz weired right now .. i feel like im flying in the cloud .. * prob my ignorance* i dono .. i just feel bummed out .. major
just got shot at again.. im feeling like a ******** k**t here and she leaves to go watch tv .. * wonder wether she reali care * am i giving her a chance ? wont she aldeady know by now .. i dont relai want to answa .. * how was ur day ? with all that* itz just not right .. aah . itz just ******** .. being fired and forgeten..
*datz cheating in a dog fight i recon... fires and foget missiles. good hit chance ..*
but for not aaa has stopped for a while , could be the calm befor the storm i dono...
i just dont know .. i dont even know why im posting in gaia .. aah .. i dont like it .. dont like being taken for granted .. abused .. fogetten .. sounds like what happend to me befor .. id thought she loved me and that she cared .. * iv heared that befor* cover it up with a kiss ... hmm
see how things go .... wish i have 3 arms 1 to bail .. one on shoot and one on throttle .. see which one i punch first .. see how things go...

im gona prob stew on this like every good person does .. hmm
that aaa fire could hav ripped the fabric of my heart ..
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