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♥ Why Does It Have To Be Me? ♥
♥ I regret bringing it to school. I regret losing it. I regret having part of it gone and having it broken! Why does this have to happen to me? Any emotion I feel right now is the sadness within me. This entry probably is going to be really short because I don't have much to say. Anything I had to say has now faded away, along with part of me. Everything bad is happening to me right now. Am I supposed to still act happy and try to be myself? I can't be myself because this is what I am right now. Sad, and I can't forgive anyone that had to do with this. I won't and I can't forgive. This is the only question I ask myself right now though. What can I do to those people? I don't know. I'm out of thoughts right now. My mind is filled with some other thoughts I don't want in my life. Why couldn't someone just be honest, be a nice person and tell me they did it? Or why didn't they just give it back. What does a girl have to do? What did I do to deserve this? Someone, if you will, please tell me. I'm serious. Tell me what I did wrong to make someone want to do this to me, making me feel this way because nothing can fill up the space that's already been taken away. Why couldn't it have been another pencil? Why couldn't it have been someone else's? Why am I feeling this way? No one can do anything to make me not feel this way. No one. I'm trying to convince myself to stop feeling this way, but if I can't do it, no one can control my emotions. Don't worry. I won't do anything to you. Doesn't matter if you had anything to do with this or not, I might as well just let go. I'd let go because I understand that no matter what I do to anyone, nothing is going to change reality. So why don't I just face it. I probably won't be typing happy entries for a while until I've finally prepared myself to face this world. This world where things happen and no one cares about you. Let me just tell myself to FACE REALITY AND REALLY, MOVE ON. ♥
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