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The past few months have felt like pretty much something out of a dream. So many things happened to me, in my life, many of which I never saw coming.

Mom getting cancer, breaking up, losing most of my friends, getting a dog. I never thought any of these would happen, let alone all at the same time. I wasn't ready for all of this, and I'm still not. It isn't easy taking on the responsibility of a whole family, including a dog, while you're still trying to pick up the pieces of your own life. It doesn't help when everyone thinks I'm blowing things out of proportion or when they think I'm not helping out with my family.

'Watch over your mom, she's going through alot'
'Watch over your sister, she doesn't understand what's going on but that's okay shes only a kid'
'Take care of your family, be a better son.'
'You need to pick up the responsibility, stop being such a lazy a**'
'Ryan, you need to pick up your grades, you'll never get anywhere in the future if you keep up like this'

Every time someone approaches me and tells me this, I respond with 'I know, I'm trying my hardest'

'Try harder'

I try not to tell anyone what's going on because I don't want to push the burden on anyone. It's probably better that way.

I guess in the end, my problems aren't even that bad.
Someone always has it worse.