Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

it's a Wednesday tomorrow and i don't have to wear uniform!

yay...

and it's like Jake's birthday.
and..

ew.

he arrived at the library...

SHIRTLESS

i was so scared...
I mean
I was scared...

I also put on the hoodie
I was disgusted.
dude...



...



So like

i found out alot of s**t today

I don't care because I'm too happy to think about anything else except one thing

and because i didn't do anything...

soo yeah.

Just to let you know i know how to break a face when i fxcking feel like it...
all i have to do is take out all my past frustrations on that target


then the next thing after that...
i'll need like a few body bags...

not to brag or anything
there are actual times when i can get really...

excited... -_-

when i get into a fight
especially if that person drags me into it.
and i wasn't originally part of it..

I have like a weird lust for violence...
lol
i just start getting goosebumps..
uhm
what's that word...

uh...

Sadistic...
yeah...
I still have that side of me locked up somewhere...

it's just that people are starting to irritate me
i stop myself from being angry now.
but people just somehow keep pushing it

idk why people like triggering that side of me
I hate myself for even having that part exist.
i wish it didn't...
that's why i was like "THAT" in the 7th grade
then i got better =D
then it got worse =(
Now just when i am recovering
i'm being forced down
HOW NICE!

I don't get why people like to bring each other down
especially when the other is a good person
and just for being nice others want them to be like them.

that's like gayness
like when they canceled our color guard performance.
that was suppose to be the most awesomesteresreresrerest
performance eva!


but CUC had to be gayness
and pep rally became boring....

FXCK!!

that's the only thing i'm angry about.

GAYNESS!!!!

awwwww!!!