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The title pretty much speaks for itself, but I guess I should elaborate. Well, for the first time in months, I finally was able to talk with my bf on IM...only everything we would talk about, everything he would say, would make me cry. I can't seem to stop crying even though he already logged off. Pathetic isn't it? Regardless, I don't know why that was, but I believe it had something to do with the fact that it's so difficult to spend time together outside of school. That and the fact that I miss him so much... It really doesn't help that we're graduating next Saturday so I won't be able to see him at school anymore. And apparently his parents don't help either...or at least from what he says of them. Anywho, it just really sux cuz even when we manage to be somewhere together (like today at Anthony's), we can't even spend time together. It just makes it all the more difficult...and he's already hinted that if I can't wait, if I can't make that sacrifice for our sake...well, it'll just be a really rainy day for us...it seems as if he's reluctant to say "break up" or stuff like that cuz he never refers to it that way. Maybe that idea is just as painful to him as it is to me...Either way, I hope time brings me more patience and is way more friendly with us. I would give anything to spend a whole day with just him... just us two, me in his arms, safe and comforted...and complete.